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newyears didnt work out the way i was planning...
was supposed to go to "rinse", a jungle/dnb party/rave deal in vancouver...the ticket was waiting for me...
got myself all ready to go with darryl and tyson, but just as we were leaving, darryl metnioned his car felt like it was loosing power...after a few mins it seemed normal...just after we left mission, the engine light came on...just after the engine light came on we turned around and came back to the carhole and organise somethign else, we almost arranged something with the ticket holders boyfirends parents to borrow a car...but it fell through, and i was left in mission to drink beer in the carhole. this thought depressed me at first, because that can happen almost every night...i was wanting something new, something to open fresh neuropaths and burn impressions with the light of experience in the dark cavities of my brain that hide in the shadows of routine...but on second thought, there was no way out of it, and i would just have to take some effort, grab the light, and burn fresh experience into those brain cavities...well, it wasnt much different than the norm, the only thing was the people who were there and the people drinking who normally didnt drink...it was a nice eve...i was almost not wanting to go to rinse deep down...thank you for snow and engine troubles, i had a good time...after the drinks, fireworks, and hugs were done, i walked with oz and greg all the way up to gregs house, was so much fun, drunken frolicing in the snow is what i needed...we all squeeked ourselves in greg house to get some tea, then drank it outside, made tracks at city hall...then oz and i walked back and talked alot, spilling our thoughts out, stood up by my house till 5am talking and smoking cognac dipped cigares until we hugged one another farewell...
that was new years...but i was missing my alissa, she thought i was going to rinse the whole time, and i thought she might come out to mission with jeska, but we both missed eachother...
the good part was when i woke up in the new day, she drove out all hung over and came to be with me, im very glad she did so...i missed her alot
we went to her place at some point, then we were driven to her cousins home, we were house sittting while they were in mexico...at the door, we were suprised to find one, two, three cats....and one dog...
all we knew was the dogs name,"bandit"the other cats we gave names two, there was fatty, the most fatest cat i have ever seen in person...and conrad the kitten, one spunky crazy kitten, and the other cat i didnt name, i called her sweety, she just kept to herself in the basement for the most part...
it was fun just walking into a strange home and calling it ours...the second day we heading out to vancouver to walk around and check out record shops, but soon as we got off the buss and started walking up hastings, alissa remembered that she left the dog outside...huge oops...then she called her gramas to see if she could check on the situation, but got her grampa, and from what i was told, it was a difficult phonecall, and alissas grama didnt live there and was her own daughters responsibility...or soemthing strange...her grandfather is very old...
but after we realised there was nothing we could do, we did a rush around visit of the city, went to pizza place, got slices, went to scratch for awhile, i browsed forever, wished i had more money to spend
this is what i bought...
Venetian Snares - Doll Doll Doll
Venetian Snares - Find Candace (the art student video for this track is here
Atmosphere - Trying to Find Balance the video is here
Eyedea & Abilities - First Born
Paris - Sonic Jihad video clips of paris
and i got a Kid 606, and wesley willis poster for 50cents each...
after that we got back "home" to a barking dog, and we were happy to see it was safe and sound...
then we did some e and it kicked in more for her than it did for me, was odd, but it eventually kicked in for me and we were having much squishy fun, it was my fiurst time really doing it, last time it was half a cap and i was already drunk, so i dont think i noticed it...
i wished i could have lasted longer, we tapped into a bottle of wine to help keep the bliss, and it helped for a little while, then we rushed around looking for anything to help. took strange pills, didnt notice them do anything. then smoked pot...the pot only made things weird, i was fairly alright with it, but alissa got into a weird trip where all of a sudden she thought she was crazy and every kind gesture towards her she thought of as me being patronizing, this bothered me to see her being so mean to herself, so i would try and let her know she was nothing but perfect with a smile and kiss, and she would say it was patronizing, i felt stuck, like there was nothign i could do but assure with eye contact that i meant what i said, and gestured...eventually she came to, and the rest of the eve was alright, and cuddly, i slepts alright, didnt feel hung over or anything...then we cleaned house and walked in the -9 weather to her gramas, and were fed, then walked to bus stop and sat there, we missed the buss, so had to wait half hour...damn it was cold...then a short bus ride to coquitlam, then to poco, then to ridge, where we had to wait an hour for the bus that goes nearest her house, walked through the mall, bought a cheap t-shirt for $3, ate food, waited for bus, then bussed to last stop until no mans land and alissas hosue, alissas mom picked us up, and drove around trying to find salt/sand for their drivway...finally we got to her hosue and i had to do a few little chores, then we stole the car and came to mission, stopped at carhole to show off my goddies, and came home to cuddle in bed and shower...
she left this morning and a sour note, but came right back and im glad, the note was mixed into something id rather listen to for the rest of my life...
i fixed up the flyer im making for sons of zadok, gemineye, shortchange, kadmon, droneski, and fbs...they're playing on the 10th at replay board shops new loungey jam space called classic rhythm...
went to java...sat, talked, mostly listened and thought...came home for the rest of the night...now here i am...
i have to work tomorrow
i still want to run away into the hills and build a little mud and grass house, maybe a cave dwelling...
i wonder when thats going to happen, how its goign to happen...i can see it a few ways..
1. big crazy war or something big and crazy happens too close to home...
2. i work without spending much money until i can buy a small chunk of land surrouned by crown land, where i will build onto and hope i dont get caught, until i have full rights to that land...7 years im told
3. i just get up one day, walk away, and do it...
now its blah time
set the alarm clock, lay out my clothes (fuck its going to be cold tomorrow), figure out what im going eat for breakfast..then try and sleep...
no more springs nights...well, i could go, it all depends on how much i want to work without sleep the folowing morning...
nuts
peace
(p.s. i love alissa)
was supposed to go to "rinse", a jungle/dnb party/rave deal in vancouver...the ticket was waiting for me...
got myself all ready to go with darryl and tyson, but just as we were leaving, darryl metnioned his car felt like it was loosing power...after a few mins it seemed normal...just after we left mission, the engine light came on...just after the engine light came on we turned around and came back to the carhole and organise somethign else, we almost arranged something with the ticket holders boyfirends parents to borrow a car...but it fell through, and i was left in mission to drink beer in the carhole. this thought depressed me at first, because that can happen almost every night...i was wanting something new, something to open fresh neuropaths and burn impressions with the light of experience in the dark cavities of my brain that hide in the shadows of routine...but on second thought, there was no way out of it, and i would just have to take some effort, grab the light, and burn fresh experience into those brain cavities...well, it wasnt much different than the norm, the only thing was the people who were there and the people drinking who normally didnt drink...it was a nice eve...i was almost not wanting to go to rinse deep down...thank you for snow and engine troubles, i had a good time...after the drinks, fireworks, and hugs were done, i walked with oz and greg all the way up to gregs house, was so much fun, drunken frolicing in the snow is what i needed...we all squeeked ourselves in greg house to get some tea, then drank it outside, made tracks at city hall...then oz and i walked back and talked alot, spilling our thoughts out, stood up by my house till 5am talking and smoking cognac dipped cigares until we hugged one another farewell...
that was new years...but i was missing my alissa, she thought i was going to rinse the whole time, and i thought she might come out to mission with jeska, but we both missed eachother...
the good part was when i woke up in the new day, she drove out all hung over and came to be with me, im very glad she did so...i missed her alot
we went to her place at some point, then we were driven to her cousins home, we were house sittting while they were in mexico...at the door, we were suprised to find one, two, three cats....and one dog...
all we knew was the dogs name,"bandit"the other cats we gave names two, there was fatty, the most fatest cat i have ever seen in person...and conrad the kitten, one spunky crazy kitten, and the other cat i didnt name, i called her sweety, she just kept to herself in the basement for the most part...
it was fun just walking into a strange home and calling it ours...the second day we heading out to vancouver to walk around and check out record shops, but soon as we got off the buss and started walking up hastings, alissa remembered that she left the dog outside...huge oops...then she called her gramas to see if she could check on the situation, but got her grampa, and from what i was told, it was a difficult phonecall, and alissas grama didnt live there and was her own daughters responsibility...or soemthing strange...her grandfather is very old...
but after we realised there was nothing we could do, we did a rush around visit of the city, went to pizza place, got slices, went to scratch for awhile, i browsed forever, wished i had more money to spend
this is what i bought...
Venetian Snares - Doll Doll Doll
Venetian Snares - Find Candace (the art student video for this track is here
Atmosphere - Trying to Find Balance the video is here
Eyedea & Abilities - First Born
Paris - Sonic Jihad video clips of paris
and i got a Kid 606, and wesley willis poster for 50cents each...
after that we got back "home" to a barking dog, and we were happy to see it was safe and sound...
then we did some e and it kicked in more for her than it did for me, was odd, but it eventually kicked in for me and we were having much squishy fun, it was my fiurst time really doing it, last time it was half a cap and i was already drunk, so i dont think i noticed it...
i wished i could have lasted longer, we tapped into a bottle of wine to help keep the bliss, and it helped for a little while, then we rushed around looking for anything to help. took strange pills, didnt notice them do anything. then smoked pot...the pot only made things weird, i was fairly alright with it, but alissa got into a weird trip where all of a sudden she thought she was crazy and every kind gesture towards her she thought of as me being patronizing, this bothered me to see her being so mean to herself, so i would try and let her know she was nothing but perfect with a smile and kiss, and she would say it was patronizing, i felt stuck, like there was nothign i could do but assure with eye contact that i meant what i said, and gestured...eventually she came to, and the rest of the eve was alright, and cuddly, i slepts alright, didnt feel hung over or anything...then we cleaned house and walked in the -9 weather to her gramas, and were fed, then walked to bus stop and sat there, we missed the buss, so had to wait half hour...damn it was cold...then a short bus ride to coquitlam, then to poco, then to ridge, where we had to wait an hour for the bus that goes nearest her house, walked through the mall, bought a cheap t-shirt for $3, ate food, waited for bus, then bussed to last stop until no mans land and alissas hosue, alissas mom picked us up, and drove around trying to find salt/sand for their drivway...finally we got to her hosue and i had to do a few little chores, then we stole the car and came to mission, stopped at carhole to show off my goddies, and came home to cuddle in bed and shower...
she left this morning and a sour note, but came right back and im glad, the note was mixed into something id rather listen to for the rest of my life...
i fixed up the flyer im making for sons of zadok, gemineye, shortchange, kadmon, droneski, and fbs...they're playing on the 10th at replay board shops new loungey jam space called classic rhythm...
went to java...sat, talked, mostly listened and thought...came home for the rest of the night...now here i am...
i have to work tomorrow
i still want to run away into the hills and build a little mud and grass house, maybe a cave dwelling...
i wonder when thats going to happen, how its goign to happen...i can see it a few ways..
1. big crazy war or something big and crazy happens too close to home...
2. i work without spending much money until i can buy a small chunk of land surrouned by crown land, where i will build onto and hope i dont get caught, until i have full rights to that land...7 years im told
3. i just get up one day, walk away, and do it...
now its blah time
set the alarm clock, lay out my clothes (fuck its going to be cold tomorrow), figure out what im going eat for breakfast..then try and sleep...
no more springs nights...well, i could go, it all depends on how much i want to work without sleep the folowing morning...
nuts
peace
(p.s. i love alissa)