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'If wishes were fishes, we'd all cast nets.'
This endless cycle of same same same bitch bitch bitch cause it's the same same same is really getting boring. Part of me knows I prefer instant gratification and working for stuff is not some thing I excel at, but it's time to give up that identity and become something/someone better. Here's a sad bit, part of me really wants to stay cause it's easy, comfortable, and I know where I fit. I may not fit well or correctly but I fit non the less. Change is scary, especially with out a safety net, but it's worth it. Right? I don't like where I am, the only way to change it is to do something. Anything. There is a startling amount of apathy in my life right now in many ways and in many things. I'll combat it and come back the stronger once again. I just hope my next high plateau lasts a long time. This up and down down down ride I've been on sucks.
I am quite lucky that I have friends and family to be grateful for. May not see them as often as I would like but the comfort and support I get helps me keep going through the downs. I my bitch and moan, I may cry and rage, but still I am grateful to have love and support to carry me through the days I cannot even crawl. Thank you.
This endless cycle of same same same bitch bitch bitch cause it's the same same same is really getting boring. Part of me knows I prefer instant gratification and working for stuff is not some thing I excel at, but it's time to give up that identity and become something/someone better. Here's a sad bit, part of me really wants to stay cause it's easy, comfortable, and I know where I fit. I may not fit well or correctly but I fit non the less. Change is scary, especially with out a safety net, but it's worth it. Right? I don't like where I am, the only way to change it is to do something. Anything. There is a startling amount of apathy in my life right now in many ways and in many things. I'll combat it and come back the stronger once again. I just hope my next high plateau lasts a long time. This up and down down down ride I've been on sucks.
I am quite lucky that I have friends and family to be grateful for. May not see them as often as I would like but the comfort and support I get helps me keep going through the downs. I my bitch and moan, I may cry and rage, but still I am grateful to have love and support to carry me through the days I cannot even crawl. Thank you.