this is sucky... i am in the hospital at the moment waiting for surgery... i got an absys (spelling?) and it blows i couldnt swallow or eat even... i can barely open my mouth and for two days you could barely understand me... my mom may take me to justun's tomorrow after suregery and maybe heather's if she happens to be home... but she prolly wont ( Read more... )

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well this is what happened after my last entry.... i had a spaz case and got really depressed (which you all kno i am taking pills for now but i dont have the pills yet) and blacked out and found myself being yelled at by my friend and me walking into traffic straight towards a car... and he was crying... he is my lifeline right now... he has been ( Read more... )

god damnit i hate this heather is gone... no fucking reason... and its making me pissed.... i want to fucking die.... there is so much shit going on this fucking week and a half i cant handle it.... jus fucking blow my head off one of you plz.... i will pay u to do it if you want.... jus one of you.... be man enough to do it... and btw love is ( Read more... )

Im stupid and i can admit it.... i did something very stupid the other day that put me in the hospital.... suppose to be in there for 7 days but only was for 2... i was highly depressed and found out that my family is being evicted because of my brother but i thought it was my fault.... and also my brother was talkin bout suicide and i could not ( Read more... )

update tomorrow... life can choke on my balls and die right now

Ok.

I have been doing some thinking. I need to find a girlfriend. I have been hoping two people might come around and maybe think about going out with me. I don't know if they want to or not, but from what I can tell they can't. But maybe I'm wrong. I tend to be alot. And then there are two people out here who want me to do shit with them, first I ( Read more... )

DisorderRatingParanoid:HighSchizoid:Very HighSchizotypal:Very HighAntisocial:HighBorderline:ModerateHistrionic:ModerateNarcissistic:ModerateAvoidant:HighDependent:HighObsessive-Compulsive:Moderate
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Im getting sick of being patronized by what i say in here so i think after today this will be my last entry.... and i am thinking of deleting my aol yahoo and msn.... it only seems to get me in trouble... and when i get back to imlay city i am going to find a job... see amanda... whom i have seen in fucking forever (my best firned in the world who ( Read more... )