suicide
My emotion not stable right now. Not now but for the past 2 weeks. I keep thinking that i hate my self for didn't get my future to Japan. And i'm thinking that i should kill my self. I thinking about suicide for third times today. Yeah... yesterday is holy communion and today i was thinking about suicide. How cool devil isn't it? Devil always try his way to keep me away from God and today i slip to my sin again. Yeah 'that' sin again. How many times i commit to never comeback to that sin and that times too i slip again. :,) Oh God... how many times that i broken Your heart... but still You forgive if only i ask... right...? Forgive me God for the million times now.... and God... please show Your way... Lead me... i want to go to my future... but i know that's not instant way. Lead me and hold my hands in Your way so i can step in Your way..... 4 years.... that's so long but please help me.... God.....
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