I just really want to die right now...

[sbick]

I can't deal with any of this crap, because I have way too much pressure on me right now. Between what my parents expect, and what I expect of myself - and the pressure I put on myself is much, much worse - I just want it all to go away, and there's only one way I see that happening

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[katje0711]

Please don't do anything to hurt yourself. If you want to call me, I'm always here for you. {{HUGS}}

What do your parents expect?

[sbick]

Nothing, really, but... me to go to school. Or to make it as an artist.

Or to get a better job, none of which I know how to do, so I feel like I'm floundering. I got to spend the afternoon - or an hour - in the studio creating a new piece which was nice and calmed me down. My doctor called my mom to tell her, so I kept getting calls from mom and dad to see how I was doing, though, which... hard to answer a cell phone while painting with oils.

[katje0711]

I can imagine that would be hard. lol

Well, you do what you need to for you. Don't worry about what everyone else wants. Just take it one day at a time. {{HUGS}}

[sbick]

Thanks.