[FIC] Say that you love me
Title: Say that you love me
Author: sbluesnow
Main: Series Archive | One-Shots Archive
Pairing(s): Jaejoong x Junsu
Chapter(s): One-Shot
Summary: The love is there. The hate is there. It's not a love and hate relationship. It's a love or hate relationship.
Requested by:
yoosu_sarang from my closed request post here.
-x-
"Dong Bang Shin Ki! Dong Bang Shin Ki! Dong Bang Shin Ki! Dong Bang Shin Ki!"
"2U! 2U! 2U! 2U! 2U! 2U! 2U!"
"CHANGMIN! CHANGMIN! CHANGMIN! CHANGMIN!"
"JAESU! JAESU! JAESU!"
The crowd continues to chants even when the performance ends. Their fans screams were loud and strong from the beginning till the end. Their voices continue to cheer and shout out their love for Dong Bang Shin Ki.
The five men leave the stage and heads back to their assigned change room. The performance went without a hitch and the response was good. Everyone was happy and in high spirits.
Yoochun and Junsu were laughing and joking around with each other. Cracking jokes about Changmin and how he sweats so much or how Yunho's dance moves were so powerful it looked like he could knock someone out with a swing of his arm. The two were oblivious to the pair of eyes following their every move. More specifically a certain duck didn't notice the hatred being sent his way. Or the mouse who didn't notice the deadly glares being shot at him.
Yunho noticing the quote unquote mother of the band, emitting off an evil dark spiteful aura and his eyes staring at the ignorant YooSu duo, wasn't sure if he should step in or not.
As the leader, he should take his role and ask his band mate what's wrong. As a friend, he knew better then to ask Jaejoong what was wrong and face his wrath.
Yunho inched away from Jaejoong inside their small dressing room and tapped Changmin on the shoulder.
"Should you ask him or should I?" The leader asked the magnae who didn't seem to care for his hyung's safety from the angry Jaejoong.
"Neither. They'll find out on their own. If Jaejoong just happens to snap and attack the two, it's their fault for not realizing earlier."
The younger continued to press the keypads of his phone at an amazing speed, making Yunho wonder if Changmin really is texting someone or just taking his anger out on his poor phone.
Yunho looked away from the magnae back to the three across the room. Looking from YooSu to Jaejoong, the leader sighed and took a seat on the old and worn out but comfortable couch. Sinking into his seat, Yunho just waited for something to before he stepped in and stop their stupidity.
When it was time to leave, the members filed out into the van and headed back to the dorms. They would have stayed and watched the whole show but even the stylist Noona’s noticed the dark aura coming from their "umma" in the band. That's when manager hyung had pulled up the van and drove them home. He could tell that if something was going to happen it'd be better for it to be behind closed doors where no prying eyes or gossiping Noona’s were around.
Once they were inside with the front door closed and locked, Jaejoong pushed past the members and went into his room. There wasn't a loud bang of the door or shouts or screams. Just silence. Yunho and Changmin exchanged partly worried and partly anticipated looks. YooSu didn't even notice Jaejoong and headed to the kitchen to get something to eat. From where they're standing in the hallway, they could hear YooSu laughing loudly and cooking up a storm. Or it could be that they're just opening all cupboards and drawers for food or looking for utensils to make food.
Walking into the kitchen, the leader and magnae looked at the source of Jaejoong's anger. Yoochun and Junsu were eating chocolate mousse and feeding it to each other. Normally if it's swirled and plated properly, it would actually look like chocolate mousse instead of a pile of shit.
"Ahem." Yunho cleared his throat to get their attention. The two stopped feeding each other and looked at their leader.
"Which one are you taking?"
YooSu looked at their leader confused.
"The idiot who's the cause of all this." Changmin said looking at the chocolate mousse and trying not to gag from the sight.
"Okay. Yoochun, living room. Now." Yunho ordered waiting for him to get up and move.
Yoochun look back and forth between the leader and the magnae and rolled his eyes. Putting the spoon into his own bowl, he got up and made his way to the living room. Junsu pouted at the loss of his chocolate mousse companion but didn't argue with the two in front of him. He would have argued with Changmin but Yunho with the stern look on his face and the leader commanding voice was not a force to be reckoned with. Following Yoochun out, Yunho nodded at Changmin and exchanged coded looks. Junsu snorted and ignored the two, focusing his attention on his dessert.
Once 2U were out of the kitchen and in the living room, away from earshot, Changmin sat across from Junsu and stared at the older man down. He continued to stare for 3 minutes before giving up and taking the poorly scooped dessert away from Junsu.
"YAH! Get your own Minnie!" Junsu shouted, leaning over the kitchen table and trying to get his dessert back.
"Forget the mousse. It looks disgusting anyways." Changmin moved the dessert into the empty seat beside him, ignoring all of Junsu's pleading looks and teary eyes.
"Don't give me those fake tears. They don't work on me." Changmin said in a monotone voice.
"You're mean." Junsu pouted eyes completely dry and fake tears gone.
"And you're stupid."
"What the hell Changmin! Why are you like this? Is this because I ate your pizza and drank your coffee?"
"It's not just pizza and coffee!"
"It looked like pizza, it tasted like pizza. It looked like coffee and it tasted like coffee."
"Are you blind??!! It's Pizza Crudo! The bread is grilled until grill marks appear then it's brushed with the garlic oil, topped with the oregano and spread with cheese. It's topped with the tomatoes, basil and more oil; season with salt, black pepper and the red pepper."
"Yeah. Pizza." Junsu hummed, nodding his head slowly at Changmin like he's has stupid.
"And it's not just coffee! It's Thai Iced Coffee! It has Cardamom in it which adds a spicy-sweet flavour to this cooling iced coffee. The dried fruit of a plant in the ginger family, cardamom is sold in small round pods or as whole or ground seeds. This recipe calls for pods, which are ground with the coffee beans before brewing."
"I see. If you take out all the details you do realize it's still pizza and coffee right?"
"Why am I even talking to someone like you who has no appreciation for food?" Changmin sighs and shakes his head at Junsu.
"YAH! You're the weird one going on and on about food the pizza and coffee and shooing Chunnie out of the kitchen and taking away my dessert!"
Blinking his eyes rapidly, Changmin leaned back in his chair and crossed his arms across his chest. Thanks to Junsu's reminder, he remembers why he's talking to the older male in the first place. Junsu gulped and shifted uncomfortable in his seat at Changmin's sudden change. The magnae's facial expression held a mix of anger, intensity, and seriousness.
"Forget the dessert. That's the last thing you should be worrying about. Do you realize what you've done?"
"No but I'm sure you're going to tell me Changminnie."
"Don't 'Changminnie' me. Don't try to sweet talk your way out of this. Why are you such an asshole to Jae hyung?"
There was a flash in Junsu's eyes. It lasted for 3 seconds and to someone else they wouldn't have caught it but Changmin did. It was a flash of emotions. Anger, hate, revenge, and guilt. There wasn't a single trace of a broken soul because of hurting his love. It pissed Changmin off knowing that Junsu knew what he was doing and did it on purpose to Jaejoong.
"Is this what it's about? Jaejoong?" Junsu asked in a bored tone.
"That's it? That's all you got to say? No apology? Nothing? You've changed Kim Junsu. You're not the same person that I once knew. You used to treasure Jae hyung and love him. Now you continue to do things that hurt him, while knowing it and push him out of your life. He's a human being too! You can't just toss him aside when you don't want him anymore."
"Shut up Changmin. You have no right to tell me what I can and cannot do. You don't know what I'm doing or what I've been through, so don't be acting all high and mighty and lecturing me just because you notice Jaejoong's in pain. When I was in pain why didn't you step in then huh? Why didn't you help me and confront Jaejoong then?" Junsu retorted, voice calm and cold. His eyes were locked onto Changmin's and they held nothing but anger.
Changmin was speechless for once. He had nothing to say to that.
"So this is your revenge then? To hurt Jaejoong just like he hurt you before?"
"It's not revenge. I haven't done anything out of the ordinary. I'm still me. I haven't changed at all. Jaejoong has. I continued to live on with the pain. Maybe I'm just that good of an actor because you guys never noticed it. So now when JJ is hurting and showing it openly, you immediately come to me and bitch about it? Grow up Changmin. Get your facts straight before you accuse someone of something."
Junsu didn't wait for the magnae's reply. He got up and left the kitchen. He walked past the living room and ignored 2U's worried looks. Walking into his room and closing the door gently behind him, Junsu saw the man who is the cause of all this. The man he loves but hurts him without realizing it. Kim Jaejoong.
"Jaejoong." The name came out in a soft whisper. The strength from before was gone. Junsu just couldn't bring himself to raise his voice at Jaejoong.
The figure on the bed turned around, his back no longer facing Junsu. His eyes weren't red or puffy. His face held no trace of tears. There weren't any discarded tissue on the bed. It hurt to know that he loves Jaejoong more than Jaejoong loves him. The countless number of tears that he has shed because of the beautiful man. All the tissues that were used to wipe those endless tears. The many nights he cried himself to sleep, not once peeping a sound so that no one would know. He already knew that but it hurt to actually see it for real. This is one of those times that the ugly truth is nothing but ugly.
"I hate you."
Those were the first words that left Jaejoong's mouth since the performance. The first words he's spoken to Junsu all night.
Junsu laughed his Eun Kyang Kyang laugh at Jaejoong's words. It seemed to irritate Jaejoong more.
"I really hate you Kim Junsu." Jaejoong's eyes narrowed and glared at the younger.
"Love you too Joongie." Junsu giggled, blowing an air kiss to Jaejoong.
"Fuck off and die!" Jaejoong shouted, grabbing one of the pillows on the bed and whipping it at Junsu.
Leisurely picking up the pillow that hit him, Junsu hugged it close and smiled charmingly at Jaejoong. "So the monster is here."
Jaejoong eyes dared Junsu to continue with his words. They challenged him, saying 'Another sentence of me being a monster and I'll kick you duck butt into oblivion'.
"I fucking hate you too Kim Jaejoong." Junsu growled, tightening his hold on the pillow. He was squeezing the poor thing, like he was sucking all the air out of the pillow.
Their eyes caught each other's and stared into the other. It last for a good while before Jaejoong cracked and stumbled onto his back, laughing at Junsu. He was lying on the bed, clutching his stomach with his legs kicking in the air. It may have been an intense stare down but Junsu standing there with his intense stare, hands hugging the pillow like he was scared of thunder and ran to his parents room totally ruined the moment.
"I love you too Su." He said between breaths and laughs.
"I know." Junsu smiled softly. The others may not understand how their love or hate relationship works but as long as he and Jaejoong understand, its okay.
With love there's hate. With hate there's love. They'll hate each other over the most random things or over nothing but at the end of the day, if they're able to reflect and acknowledge on their love and hate, then there will always be love between them.
-x-
A/N: Yeah I have no idea what the hell I'm writing so forgive me if it's crap and if it doesn't fulfill your request.
Comments are welcomed~♥
Author: sbluesnow
Main: Series Archive | One-Shots Archive
Pairing(s): Jaejoong x Junsu
Chapter(s): One-Shot
Summary: The love is there. The hate is there. It's not a love and hate relationship. It's a love or hate relationship.
Requested by:
yoosu_sarang from my closed request post here.
-x-
"Dong Bang Shin Ki! Dong Bang Shin Ki! Dong Bang Shin Ki! Dong Bang Shin Ki!"
"2U! 2U! 2U! 2U! 2U! 2U! 2U!"
"CHANGMIN! CHANGMIN! CHANGMIN! CHANGMIN!"
"JAESU! JAESU! JAESU!"
The crowd continues to chants even when the performance ends. Their fans screams were loud and strong from the beginning till the end. Their voices continue to cheer and shout out their love for Dong Bang Shin Ki.
The five men leave the stage and heads back to their assigned change room. The performance went without a hitch and the response was good. Everyone was happy and in high spirits.
Yoochun and Junsu were laughing and joking around with each other. Cracking jokes about Changmin and how he sweats so much or how Yunho's dance moves were so powerful it looked like he could knock someone out with a swing of his arm. The two were oblivious to the pair of eyes following their every move. More specifically a certain duck didn't notice the hatred being sent his way. Or the mouse who didn't notice the deadly glares being shot at him.
Yunho noticing the quote unquote mother of the band, emitting off an evil dark spiteful aura and his eyes staring at the ignorant YooSu duo, wasn't sure if he should step in or not.
As the leader, he should take his role and ask his band mate what's wrong. As a friend, he knew better then to ask Jaejoong what was wrong and face his wrath.
Yunho inched away from Jaejoong inside their small dressing room and tapped Changmin on the shoulder.
"Should you ask him or should I?" The leader asked the magnae who didn't seem to care for his hyung's safety from the angry Jaejoong.
"Neither. They'll find out on their own. If Jaejoong just happens to snap and attack the two, it's their fault for not realizing earlier."
The younger continued to press the keypads of his phone at an amazing speed, making Yunho wonder if Changmin really is texting someone or just taking his anger out on his poor phone.
Yunho looked away from the magnae back to the three across the room. Looking from YooSu to Jaejoong, the leader sighed and took a seat on the old and worn out but comfortable couch. Sinking into his seat, Yunho just waited for something to before he stepped in and stop their stupidity.
When it was time to leave, the members filed out into the van and headed back to the dorms. They would have stayed and watched the whole show but even the stylist Noona’s noticed the dark aura coming from their "umma" in the band. That's when manager hyung had pulled up the van and drove them home. He could tell that if something was going to happen it'd be better for it to be behind closed doors where no prying eyes or gossiping Noona’s were around.
Once they were inside with the front door closed and locked, Jaejoong pushed past the members and went into his room. There wasn't a loud bang of the door or shouts or screams. Just silence. Yunho and Changmin exchanged partly worried and partly anticipated looks. YooSu didn't even notice Jaejoong and headed to the kitchen to get something to eat. From where they're standing in the hallway, they could hear YooSu laughing loudly and cooking up a storm. Or it could be that they're just opening all cupboards and drawers for food or looking for utensils to make food.
Walking into the kitchen, the leader and magnae looked at the source of Jaejoong's anger. Yoochun and Junsu were eating chocolate mousse and feeding it to each other. Normally if it's swirled and plated properly, it would actually look like chocolate mousse instead of a pile of shit.
"Ahem." Yunho cleared his throat to get their attention. The two stopped feeding each other and looked at their leader.
"Which one are you taking?"
YooSu looked at their leader confused.
"The idiot who's the cause of all this." Changmin said looking at the chocolate mousse and trying not to gag from the sight.
"Okay. Yoochun, living room. Now." Yunho ordered waiting for him to get up and move.
Yoochun look back and forth between the leader and the magnae and rolled his eyes. Putting the spoon into his own bowl, he got up and made his way to the living room. Junsu pouted at the loss of his chocolate mousse companion but didn't argue with the two in front of him. He would have argued with Changmin but Yunho with the stern look on his face and the leader commanding voice was not a force to be reckoned with. Following Yoochun out, Yunho nodded at Changmin and exchanged coded looks. Junsu snorted and ignored the two, focusing his attention on his dessert.
Once 2U were out of the kitchen and in the living room, away from earshot, Changmin sat across from Junsu and stared at the older man down. He continued to stare for 3 minutes before giving up and taking the poorly scooped dessert away from Junsu.
"YAH! Get your own Minnie!" Junsu shouted, leaning over the kitchen table and trying to get his dessert back.
"Forget the mousse. It looks disgusting anyways." Changmin moved the dessert into the empty seat beside him, ignoring all of Junsu's pleading looks and teary eyes.
"Don't give me those fake tears. They don't work on me." Changmin said in a monotone voice.
"You're mean." Junsu pouted eyes completely dry and fake tears gone.
"And you're stupid."
"What the hell Changmin! Why are you like this? Is this because I ate your pizza and drank your coffee?"
"It's not just pizza and coffee!"
"It looked like pizza, it tasted like pizza. It looked like coffee and it tasted like coffee."
"Are you blind??!! It's Pizza Crudo! The bread is grilled until grill marks appear then it's brushed with the garlic oil, topped with the oregano and spread with cheese. It's topped with the tomatoes, basil and more oil; season with salt, black pepper and the red pepper."
"Yeah. Pizza." Junsu hummed, nodding his head slowly at Changmin like he's has stupid.
"And it's not just coffee! It's Thai Iced Coffee! It has Cardamom in it which adds a spicy-sweet flavour to this cooling iced coffee. The dried fruit of a plant in the ginger family, cardamom is sold in small round pods or as whole or ground seeds. This recipe calls for pods, which are ground with the coffee beans before brewing."
"I see. If you take out all the details you do realize it's still pizza and coffee right?"
"Why am I even talking to someone like you who has no appreciation for food?" Changmin sighs and shakes his head at Junsu.
"YAH! You're the weird one going on and on about food the pizza and coffee and shooing Chunnie out of the kitchen and taking away my dessert!"
Blinking his eyes rapidly, Changmin leaned back in his chair and crossed his arms across his chest. Thanks to Junsu's reminder, he remembers why he's talking to the older male in the first place. Junsu gulped and shifted uncomfortable in his seat at Changmin's sudden change. The magnae's facial expression held a mix of anger, intensity, and seriousness.
"Forget the dessert. That's the last thing you should be worrying about. Do you realize what you've done?"
"No but I'm sure you're going to tell me Changminnie."
"Don't 'Changminnie' me. Don't try to sweet talk your way out of this. Why are you such an asshole to Jae hyung?"
There was a flash in Junsu's eyes. It lasted for 3 seconds and to someone else they wouldn't have caught it but Changmin did. It was a flash of emotions. Anger, hate, revenge, and guilt. There wasn't a single trace of a broken soul because of hurting his love. It pissed Changmin off knowing that Junsu knew what he was doing and did it on purpose to Jaejoong.
"Is this what it's about? Jaejoong?" Junsu asked in a bored tone.
"That's it? That's all you got to say? No apology? Nothing? You've changed Kim Junsu. You're not the same person that I once knew. You used to treasure Jae hyung and love him. Now you continue to do things that hurt him, while knowing it and push him out of your life. He's a human being too! You can't just toss him aside when you don't want him anymore."
"Shut up Changmin. You have no right to tell me what I can and cannot do. You don't know what I'm doing or what I've been through, so don't be acting all high and mighty and lecturing me just because you notice Jaejoong's in pain. When I was in pain why didn't you step in then huh? Why didn't you help me and confront Jaejoong then?" Junsu retorted, voice calm and cold. His eyes were locked onto Changmin's and they held nothing but anger.
Changmin was speechless for once. He had nothing to say to that.
"So this is your revenge then? To hurt Jaejoong just like he hurt you before?"
"It's not revenge. I haven't done anything out of the ordinary. I'm still me. I haven't changed at all. Jaejoong has. I continued to live on with the pain. Maybe I'm just that good of an actor because you guys never noticed it. So now when JJ is hurting and showing it openly, you immediately come to me and bitch about it? Grow up Changmin. Get your facts straight before you accuse someone of something."
Junsu didn't wait for the magnae's reply. He got up and left the kitchen. He walked past the living room and ignored 2U's worried looks. Walking into his room and closing the door gently behind him, Junsu saw the man who is the cause of all this. The man he loves but hurts him without realizing it. Kim Jaejoong.
"Jaejoong." The name came out in a soft whisper. The strength from before was gone. Junsu just couldn't bring himself to raise his voice at Jaejoong.
The figure on the bed turned around, his back no longer facing Junsu. His eyes weren't red or puffy. His face held no trace of tears. There weren't any discarded tissue on the bed. It hurt to know that he loves Jaejoong more than Jaejoong loves him. The countless number of tears that he has shed because of the beautiful man. All the tissues that were used to wipe those endless tears. The many nights he cried himself to sleep, not once peeping a sound so that no one would know. He already knew that but it hurt to actually see it for real. This is one of those times that the ugly truth is nothing but ugly.
"I hate you."
Those were the first words that left Jaejoong's mouth since the performance. The first words he's spoken to Junsu all night.
Junsu laughed his Eun Kyang Kyang laugh at Jaejoong's words. It seemed to irritate Jaejoong more.
"I really hate you Kim Junsu." Jaejoong's eyes narrowed and glared at the younger.
"Love you too Joongie." Junsu giggled, blowing an air kiss to Jaejoong.
"Fuck off and die!" Jaejoong shouted, grabbing one of the pillows on the bed and whipping it at Junsu.
Leisurely picking up the pillow that hit him, Junsu hugged it close and smiled charmingly at Jaejoong. "So the monster is here."
Jaejoong eyes dared Junsu to continue with his words. They challenged him, saying 'Another sentence of me being a monster and I'll kick you duck butt into oblivion'.
"I fucking hate you too Kim Jaejoong." Junsu growled, tightening his hold on the pillow. He was squeezing the poor thing, like he was sucking all the air out of the pillow.
Their eyes caught each other's and stared into the other. It last for a good while before Jaejoong cracked and stumbled onto his back, laughing at Junsu. He was lying on the bed, clutching his stomach with his legs kicking in the air. It may have been an intense stare down but Junsu standing there with his intense stare, hands hugging the pillow like he was scared of thunder and ran to his parents room totally ruined the moment.
"I love you too Su." He said between breaths and laughs.
"I know." Junsu smiled softly. The others may not understand how their love or hate relationship works but as long as he and Jaejoong understand, its okay.
With love there's hate. With hate there's love. They'll hate each other over the most random things or over nothing but at the end of the day, if they're able to reflect and acknowledge on their love and hate, then there will always be love between them.
-x-
A/N: Yeah I have no idea what the hell I'm writing so forgive me if it's crap and if it doesn't fulfill your request.
Comments are welcomed~♥