[FIC] Let's not...
Title: Let’s not…
Author: sbluesnow
Group(s): Super Junior
Main: Archive
Pairing(s): Kibum x Yesung, Kibum x Donghae, Donghae x Eunhyuk
Chapter(s): One-Shot
Summary: The nightmare that they are stuck in is now over. The price of waking up is to start fresh and leave the other behind. Leave for good and forget it ever happened…
-x-
"You're my nightmare."
"Then leave. Go away."
"Are you serious?"
"You said it so yourself. I'm your nightmare. So leave. Wake up from this nightmare and be happy."
"You're really going to push me away?"
"You've been doing that to me since the start Kibum. What's the difference now?"
"That you're giving up Yesung. You don't give up. You're not a quitter."
"Well I quit. I quit trying to win your love. I quit being around you constantly. I quit loving you. I quit hating you for treating me like this. I quit loving you even though you do this to me. I quit Kibum. I quit from this nightmare. You're not the only one who’s suffering from this terror of dreams."
"Why are you quitting?"
"Why are you pretending that you care?"
"I’m not pretending. It's just pathetic to see you this way."
"Better to be pathetic then a jerk that plays with my feelings and pushes and pulls my heart when you already have someone else."
"If you know that I have someone else why did you continue to go after me?"
"Why did you continue to play with my heart?"
"I didn't."
"You did Kibum. Admit it. You’re a total attention whore. You have Donghae already and he has you but you still love having the attention of being in control with those around you. You love to mess with people's minds and hearts. Just like you did to mine."
"I’m sorry."
"Leave Kibum. Just let me be on my way from you. From Kim Kibum. Let me live."
"No."
"Why not?"
"Because I don't want you to leave."
"This isn't about what you want Kibum. This whole entire time, it's always been about what you want. When to go out, where to go, what we do, who we see, when I get to see you, when I get to be with you. It’s always been what you want. Stop being selfish and just do what I want for once."
"Let’s not do this. Don’t do this Yesung. You’ll regret it."
"Do you hear yourself Kibum? You’re with Donghae already. He doesn’t deserve this and neither do I."
"He knows that I’m leading you on."
"I know he does. I’ve talked to him and he doesn’t deserve this."
"There’s nothing wrong with this if he's doing this with Eunhyuk."
"I don't care what you two do. I don't want this dream anymore. This dream that has turned into a nightmare. I don't want it."
"But I want it."
"Not anymore Kibum. I want a stable relationship. It’s something that you can’t give me. I want you. I did want you. Now it hurts too much to be around you. To be standing in front of you."
"This is your nightmare. My nightmare. Our nightmare. You can't leave."
"There’s nothing for me to hold onto and this nightmare will do nothing but continue to get worse to the point that one day I won’t even be able to wake up and live happily. I’ll always be on the run, running after you and waiting for you. Running and running until I’m gone. I don't want that Kibum. That’s too much for me to handle. That’s too much to ask for."
"Can you really leave? Can you really leave me and not love me?"
"I can try. I’m trying to. All you have to do is allow me to leave and you're free Kibum. No more nightmare."
"But that means no more you."
"No more me."
"No more Yesung."
"I’ve given up on Yesung. I’ve made my choice. Yesung is trapped in that nightmare. In the nightmare where he's stupidly in love with you and you don't love him. There is no more Yesung. Only Jongwoon now. I’m not going back Kibum. It’s too late for that."
Attention passengers: Flight 132 will be taking off shortly. Passengers please make their way to board the plane. I repeat; Flight 132 will be taking off shortly. Passengers please make their way to board the plane.
"That's me. This is goodbye Kibum. Goodbye to Yesung. Goodbye to this nightmare and hello to Jongwoon."
"You can't leave. You have so much here in Seoul. Your friends, your family, and me. Doesn’t any of that mean anything to you?"
"Of course they do. They do a lot but I have to do this. I have to move on. I need to move on. I need to forget what I need to forget. You Kibum. I need to forget you. I need to forget us."
Turning around and walking away from Kibum, Yesung lifted his duffel bag and walked towards the terminal.
This was his start. His new life. His new name. His new place in the world where there is no Kim Kibum.
-x-
A/N: random thing I wrote just now.
Comments are welcomed!
Author: sbluesnow
Group(s): Super Junior
Main: Archive
Pairing(s): Kibum x Yesung, Kibum x Donghae, Donghae x Eunhyuk
Chapter(s): One-Shot
Summary: The nightmare that they are stuck in is now over. The price of waking up is to start fresh and leave the other behind. Leave for good and forget it ever happened…
-x-
"You're my nightmare."
"Then leave. Go away."
"Are you serious?"
"You said it so yourself. I'm your nightmare. So leave. Wake up from this nightmare and be happy."
"You're really going to push me away?"
"You've been doing that to me since the start Kibum. What's the difference now?"
"That you're giving up Yesung. You don't give up. You're not a quitter."
"Well I quit. I quit trying to win your love. I quit being around you constantly. I quit loving you. I quit hating you for treating me like this. I quit loving you even though you do this to me. I quit Kibum. I quit from this nightmare. You're not the only one who’s suffering from this terror of dreams."
"Why are you quitting?"
"Why are you pretending that you care?"
"I’m not pretending. It's just pathetic to see you this way."
"Better to be pathetic then a jerk that plays with my feelings and pushes and pulls my heart when you already have someone else."
"If you know that I have someone else why did you continue to go after me?"
"Why did you continue to play with my heart?"
"I didn't."
"You did Kibum. Admit it. You’re a total attention whore. You have Donghae already and he has you but you still love having the attention of being in control with those around you. You love to mess with people's minds and hearts. Just like you did to mine."
"I’m sorry."
"Leave Kibum. Just let me be on my way from you. From Kim Kibum. Let me live."
"No."
"Why not?"
"Because I don't want you to leave."
"This isn't about what you want Kibum. This whole entire time, it's always been about what you want. When to go out, where to go, what we do, who we see, when I get to see you, when I get to be with you. It’s always been what you want. Stop being selfish and just do what I want for once."
"Let’s not do this. Don’t do this Yesung. You’ll regret it."
"Do you hear yourself Kibum? You’re with Donghae already. He doesn’t deserve this and neither do I."
"He knows that I’m leading you on."
"I know he does. I’ve talked to him and he doesn’t deserve this."
"There’s nothing wrong with this if he's doing this with Eunhyuk."
"I don't care what you two do. I don't want this dream anymore. This dream that has turned into a nightmare. I don't want it."
"But I want it."
"Not anymore Kibum. I want a stable relationship. It’s something that you can’t give me. I want you. I did want you. Now it hurts too much to be around you. To be standing in front of you."
"This is your nightmare. My nightmare. Our nightmare. You can't leave."
"There’s nothing for me to hold onto and this nightmare will do nothing but continue to get worse to the point that one day I won’t even be able to wake up and live happily. I’ll always be on the run, running after you and waiting for you. Running and running until I’m gone. I don't want that Kibum. That’s too much for me to handle. That’s too much to ask for."
"Can you really leave? Can you really leave me and not love me?"
"I can try. I’m trying to. All you have to do is allow me to leave and you're free Kibum. No more nightmare."
"But that means no more you."
"No more me."
"No more Yesung."
"I’ve given up on Yesung. I’ve made my choice. Yesung is trapped in that nightmare. In the nightmare where he's stupidly in love with you and you don't love him. There is no more Yesung. Only Jongwoon now. I’m not going back Kibum. It’s too late for that."
Attention passengers: Flight 132 will be taking off shortly. Passengers please make their way to board the plane. I repeat; Flight 132 will be taking off shortly. Passengers please make their way to board the plane.
"That's me. This is goodbye Kibum. Goodbye to Yesung. Goodbye to this nightmare and hello to Jongwoon."
"You can't leave. You have so much here in Seoul. Your friends, your family, and me. Doesn’t any of that mean anything to you?"
"Of course they do. They do a lot but I have to do this. I have to move on. I need to move on. I need to forget what I need to forget. You Kibum. I need to forget you. I need to forget us."
Turning around and walking away from Kibum, Yesung lifted his duffel bag and walked towards the terminal.
This was his start. His new life. His new name. His new place in the world where there is no Kim Kibum.
-x-
A/N: random thing I wrote just now.
Comments are welcomed!