Lost Innocence (Pokemon): #187 - Nothing lost, nothing gained
Title: Lost Innocence
Author: scarlet_ivy
Rating: G
Fandom: Pokemon
Pairing/s: Franticshipping: RubySapphire
Theme: #187 - Nothing lost, nothing gained.
Genre/s: General
Warning/s: mild angst
Words: 392
Summary: “That fateful day had changed me forever.” From both sides of the coin.
Disclaimer: still don’t own anything
Note: first part is Ruby’s POV, second part is Sapphire’s
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Lost Innocence
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This wasn’t what I had wanted, what I had pictured when I was younger. Dressing up pokemon and making them look (and feel) beautiful. It wasn’t bad per se; it reminded me of her at least. But in the end, my passion was for pokemon battles. There was nothing that could compare to the feeling of adrenaline pulsing through my veins and that exciting sensation that rushes through my mind.
My love for contests was a façade; one that I desperately try to keep up to hide the ugly monster that resided inside of me. The other me that frightened and pushed people away. In the end, all I was doing was hiding my true self, to protect my heart against the hurt of rejection when people finally see it. The monster behind the mask.
That fateful day had changed me forever. I had lost my childhood innocence, and gained a barrier that isolated myself against everyone else. The sense of loneliness never left me since. Not surprising; no one wanted to be near a monster like me.
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I love battling. Everything about battling: the training, the wins, the losses, everything. Really, I have to thank him. The memories are fuzzy - I can’t remember his name or his face - but I will never forget the short time we had spent together. I still have dreams about him. Kind of embarrassing, I have to admit.
He was the one who had first introduced me to the wonders of pokemon battling. Believe it or not, I used to be a shy, docile girl. I was scared of a lot of petty, meaningless things. To this day, I still remember the event that made me finally abandon my softer side and bring out my rough and tough personality. The horrible salamence that had forever scarred my best and only friend.
My inability to protect myself had caused my loved ones to get hurt; I had promised myself that I would never let anyone get hurt because of me again. I’ve gotten stronger; I only wish I can meet him again to thank him and apologize for my actions and ignorant words.
Then, maybe the nightmares will finally disappear.
That fateful day had changed me forever. I had lost my childhood innocence, and gained the determination to change. I have to become strong… for him.
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