For lastvoyages: Thirteenth Hex [voice]

[scarlet_discord]

[All the false cheer. All of it.]

[private to Luke]
Hey, do you want a puppy? I promise he’s huge.

[private to Rex]
Hey, do you want that ebook reader I picked up from that one port? It’s full of good stuff and if all else fails you can use it for parts.

[Fail!Private to Loki and Drake]
Do you want any of my books? I’m getting rid of them. Oh, and

Comments

[Private]

[notiaraincluded]

Not really. What's wrong, is he getting to be too much trouble?

[Private]

[scarlet_discord]

No, he's absolutely great. I just don't know if I can--I mean...

I want to make sure he's well taken care of if something happens to me.

Re: [Private]

[notiaraincluded]

What do you mean if something happens to you? [MAJOR FLAGS!]

[Private]

[scarlet_discord]

This place is breaking me, Luke. I shouldn't even be here. I used to be a nice person. I wanted to be a superhero. Now I can't even stand to deal with most people. There's no justice here, nothing makes sense, and right now the Admiral seems to be steering us straight to hell. I want out.

Private to Wanda

[flashy_magic]

Yeah--wait, won't you need them?

Private to Wanda

[scarlet_discord]

Nah. Not anymore. I'm not staying.

Re: Private to Wanda

[flashy_magic]

No. I'm not taking them then. I went through this with Arthas and I'm not going through this again! Which way are you taking? Are you going to try some grand scheme to escape that doesn't work or are you going to...to kill yourself like Arthas?

Private

[scarlet_discord]

Well, what the fuck do you expect me to do? I'm losing my mind. I've never killed anyone or conned anyone or spread curses everywhere, but here I am in this hellhole, taking the same punishment as them. I didn't used to be a crazy-angry bitch, until this place got to me. I can't take it anymore.

Private

[scarlet_discord]

I don't want to stay anymore. I don't want to pretend to build a life here, I don't want belongings. I just want off.

Private

[scarlet_discord]

Then maybe I'll just kill myself and keep doing it. I don't want to be here anymore. I didn't do anything to deserve this, and I'm tired of the Admiral's bullshit.

Private

[stopthat_destro]

I-- how come?

Private

[scarlet_discord]

I used this place like a dorm room. Gathering souvenirs, saying I was here to learn, pretending it was OK. That's stupid. This isn't fun or an adventure. It's hell. That's becoming more literal by the day. Gathering belongings, spreading goodwill, treating this place like home...it is completely pointless. I don't need cool stuff. I need to escape.

Private

[stopthat_destro]

You'll be able to escape one day. [Seriously, he's scheeeeming to that effect.] In the meantime, you may as well be comfortable.

Private

[scarlet_discord]

...

Yeah. Comfortable. [hysterical little burst of laughter]

Well...thanks. I'll just...

I don't know.

[not_annika]

'Spring' cleaning?

[scarlet_discord]

Getting ready to leave.

[not_annika]

You have graduated?

[scarlet_discord]

No. Graduation is the result of a completely arbitrary decision by a mentally unbalanced being who sends murderers home while keeping me here for being "angry". If I'm lucky, my name will be pulled out of his hat next. If I'm not he'll keep me here and torture me for years. There is neither sense nor justice to it, and I no longer pretend that there is.

So. Either I find a way to leave soon or I go completely crazy. Either way I no longer have a use for belongings.