im a bad person. o lead people on unintentionally. i guess i am a tease. but im not that pretty and im kinda boring. and now im apparently insane too so i dont know whats going on. now with short hair i should be less attactive because all anyone ever says is how pretty my hair is. and since when is my being a dancer sexy. what is sexy about a flat ( Read more... )

my hair is so little! im 12 again! btw ur all gunna kill me!

i met myself in a larger version and i don't mean that physically. we're just pretty much in very similar situations. we smoke together alot lately and she's really nice and she's a drama minor too (which im planning to do) but everytime i look at her i think to myself "at least im not fucking him."

awkward experience of the night take 257304 ( Read more... )

i'm very close to leaving skool. i just can't do it anymore. maybe i'm a lazy bum whose given up, but i can't. i can't push myself to do this. i love the dorms, i love dance, i love work, i love my friends, i love micheal, i love the auditions, but i just can't take the school stuff. i don't know why but it just feels like its getting in the way of ( Read more... )

i went today and it was ok, sufficiently awkward. i told her i'd come back. she has a list of things were gunna work on. she wants me to tell her everything i eat, i don't think thats a good idea. the questoinnaire was probably a bad idea. i don't wanna talk about how sad i am, i just don't i think she'll judge me. we talked about my family issues ( Read more... )

come thursday i'll be going through one of the scariest experiences of my life. i don't know why it frightens me, no one else would finf it scary. i just don't want to walk in there and have them tell me this is how life is. because i don't know what i'll do if they say there's nothing wrong. if this is how i'm supposed to feel then i don't know ( Read more... )

who would've know you of all people would give me hope ( Read more... )

i'm glad to have you back in my life, i missed you so much, not just physically. you were so different before you left, i felt like you didn't care. now you call all the time and you want me to visit and i truelly have one of my best friends back. i still have alot of work with another best friend, but at least i have you.

how dumb do you have to be to need other people. they aren't reliable. they don't actually love you, they love the way you make them feel. i should know. im stupid and cruel. i use people probably more then anyone else to make me feel better about myself. i look for love in the wrong places. i feel like im not worth more, like no one really likes ( Read more... )