I finally found all my old pictures ive been wanting to find!!
they were mostly of 9th grade.
It was nice to go threw them and remember but I miss those times so much..
thats when I can honestly say.. thats when things were perfect

Your not who you used to be
nor do you have time for me or even care about how I feel.
so thats what I decided what I did
Maybe we should just not talk anymore.
Dont act like you care now.. just because you dont have me.
I thought things were different but boy were they not.
now Im left alone once again.

I think Im ready.
for whatever my mom wants to do.
living in this hell hold (well I should not say that because my mom works her hardest to make this home look nice and keep it up) so I should take that back because my mom tries really hard. but Iam ready for whatever my mom wants to do. Living in this house that we cant keep up anymore is just ( Read more... )

Apples and Wine

Women are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the
tree.
Most men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid
of
falling and getting hurt. Instead, they sometimes take the apples from
the
ground that aren't as good, but easy. The apples at the top think
something
is wrong with them, when in reality, they're ( Read more... )

I wanna go back so bad to the days where Dembs Dr. was perfect.
with us 5 young girls running around with no worries on our mind
where first romances took place/started
everything just fit into place.
Didnt have to worry about-
-Bills
-Love
-Death
-College
-Jobs
-Health
-Friends
-Car and all its expensives

Theres just so many things to deal with now
but we all ( Read more... )

dont really have a life anymore.
got a job at the Jefferson beach yacht Club. making $9.50 an hour. not bad not bad
but honeslty I didnt know I'd be working this much. 
It feels good and horrible at the same time..
I've only worked 3 days and Ive worked 30 1/2 hours.
Im not used to working so much. shit at Hungry Howies (ew) I would work like 4 or 5 ( Read more... )

How come I feel like everything that Im involved in is a LIE ( Read more... )

Im SO SICK of people acting like there is such "GREAT" relationships ( Read more... )

"I had a bad day agian..
She said I would not understand."

I've never felt this low in my life.
it goes way back. back to things I cannot control.
I should have never got started in this shit.
Now it has control over me.

Theres beauty in the breakdown.

okay it really pisses me off when people who have me added and read my journal tend to write in theres about how people need to stop bitching and blah blah blah ... well maybe some of us dont have fucking everything handed to us from our daddies. it makes me sick maybe if you fucking lived in a fucked up world like half the u.s you would understand ( Read more... )