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Kathspleen the Terrible says:
so what did you and pommy get up to?
CatDog [moggy] says:
danced...
CatDog [moggy] says:
drank
CatDog [moggy] says:
...pashed -.-
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
...
CatDog [moggy] says:
...
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
right
CatDog [moggy] says:
i dunno what to do anymore.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
*shrug*
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
you're drunk
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
shit happens
CatDog [moggy] says:
there wans't any feeling involved.
CatDog [moggy] says:
*shrug*
CatDog [moggy] says:
and if you did it i would be okay with it too
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
yeah yeah
CatDog [moggy] says:
?
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
nothing
CatDog [moggy] says:
tell me
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
don't wanna talk about it
CatDog [moggy] says:
...
CatDog [moggy] says:
well if i recall, we did say that we were okay with doing shit like this
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
did we?
CatDog [moggy] says:
yes.
CatDog [moggy] says:
like a month ago
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
i thought it was 'as long as the other party knows about it' if I remember.
CatDog [moggy] says:
i dunno.
CatDog [moggy] says:
well now you know about it
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
yeah, thanks
CatDog [moggy] says:
?
CatDog [moggy] says:
you're angry with me
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
wow, how on the ball you are.
CatDog [moggy] says:
i knew that from.. say 5 minutes ago?
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
really.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
what ninja reflexes/
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
you know, I probably wouldn't have minded if you could have called or texted, and said something
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
but you KNOW we are on the rocks
CatDog [moggy] says:
i know that
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
you know we aren't in a good spot
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
and yes, maybe that's because I've been put off, but shit!
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
today I was actually starting to kid myself into thinking that shit might pick up again
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
while I was at work
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
I was thinking
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
'heck, maybe I'm just upset at everything else'
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
'maybe it's just my hormones'
CatDog [moggy] says:
since things have been like this i've been a mixture of angry, frustrated, not knowing what to do, and possibly even not deserving a relationship
CatDog [moggy] says:
and downright depressed too
CatDog [moggy] says:
over.. i dunno
CatDog [moggy] says:
how many weeks
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
dont
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
fucking
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
START
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
seriously, it feels like I'm only in this so you can FUCKING FAR OUT SUNSHINE
CatDog [moggy] says:
what do you want me todo?
CatDog [moggy] says:
i feel so fucking helpless
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
dont do anything
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
just
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
dont even start
CatDog [moggy] says:
what?
CatDog [moggy] says:
okay.
CatDog [moggy] says:
fine.
CatDog [moggy] says:
i'm done
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
good. because as far as things between us are? we're done.
CatDog [moggy] says:
what do you want from me?
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
nothing
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
christ
CatDog [moggy] says:
okay.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
what are you doing.
CatDog [moggy] says:
shivering violenltly.. and petting my cat.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
right.
CatDog [moggy] says:
why
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
just wanted to know.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
Pommy is lapping this up, you know.
CatDog [moggy] says:
hmm?
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
never mind
CatDog [moggy] says:
ok.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
listen
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
I know I'm fucking infuriated with you now
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
but don't you dare harm yourself.
CatDog [moggy] says:
im not
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
not now, not in the future.
CatDog [moggy] says:
look. i figured that... well.. better hear it straight from me, than from someone else.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
fine.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
Doesn't make it any better.
CatDog [moggy] says:
i know.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
It's hard enough having to deal with all this shit
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
like come on, how many times have we fucked, and how many times have I came?
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
We've fucked over ten times.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
You only reciprocated twice, and once I came.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
How the fuck was I supposed to take that?
CatDog [moggy] says:
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
Yeah, great answer.
CatDog [moggy] says:
i have no answer ..
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
and when I couldnt cater to your needs, you got shitty
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
well fuck
CatDog [moggy] says:
i never meant to get shitty.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
Yeah?
CatDog [moggy] says:
this is the stuff i worry about...
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
Forward that to a month ago and see if it cares.
CatDog [moggy] says:
that you'll see me for the scum bag i really am, i guess
CatDog [moggy] says:
and i know i'm no good.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
fucking hell
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
everyone has their flaws
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
I accept mine, FUCK I embrace them sometimes
CatDog [moggy] says:
i can't accept mine, then.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
you? You just coddle off and hide them
CatDog [moggy] says:
like i said, i ca't accept mine
CatDog [moggy] says:
cos... no one can accept them. i guess.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
bullshit
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
you dont want to
CatDog [moggy] says:
i wish i could though
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
I'm soooo sure of that.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
Get the bookies and tell them to place $20 on it.
CatDog [moggy] says:
i fucked up. i admit it.
CatDog [moggy] says:
which is what i've been meaning to say from the start.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
By the start, you mean when you had your tongue down her throat?
CatDog [moggy] says:
i was hesitatn to get that far in the firstp lace. i meant.. i fucked up ever since i got close to her..
CatDog [moggy] says:
we didn't have to get to that stage to realise that
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
Wow. You know, if it was me, I would have iunno... stopped?
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
Shit, I was loyal to you
CatDog [moggy] says:
for the past few weeks ... i just didn't know where i stood with you anymore
CatDog [moggy] says:
it seemed that you didn't think that we'd work out
CatDog [moggy] says:
so i tohught.. why should i try if you think that way
CatDog [moggy] says:
and it's only recently that its starting to hit me
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
so it's my fault?
CatDog [moggy] says:
look. fuck the blame game. i'm just trying to state what's heen happening.
CatDog [moggy] says:
correct me if i'm wrong, but it seemed like you didn't think it wouldwork between us
CatDog [moggy] says:
and right now i'm pretty fucking exhausted.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
no, I didn't
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
okay, go to bed
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
see if I care
CatDog [moggy] says:
i'm not
CatDog [moggy] says:
.. and i didn't mean it in that way either
CatDog [moggy] says:
i just meant that... i'm exhausted.. as in.. i dont know what to do anymore
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
how about I make this easy
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
and say, we are through
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
kay?
CatDog [moggy] says:
over the net? wow.. that's even better than last time.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
Yeah, pretty fucking brave of me.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
Like I want to see you after this shit.
CatDog [moggy] says:
you know.. i was always ... a little... scared of this.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
There's more to life than being afraid of rejection.
CatDog [moggy] says:
part of it is rejection
CatDog [moggy] says:
part if it is something else
CatDog [moggy] says:
*of
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
I'm sure
CatDog [moggy] says:
i guess.. i was hesitant in the beginning because i always knew i wasn't much of a person...
CatDog [moggy] says:
=\
CatDog [moggy] says:
and i still feel that way.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
Whatever
CatDog [moggy] says:
i've always felt that way.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
Quit beating yourself up, it won't bring me back.
CatDog [moggy] says:
i'm not.
CatDog [moggy] says:
i'm just telling you ...
CatDog [moggy] says:
probably stuff i should've told you long ago
CatDog [moggy] says:
a month ago, rather
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
a long long time ago in a galaxy far far away, I gave a shit.
CatDog [moggy] says:
and lately it seems you haven't been
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
yeah, came back to earth.
CatDog [moggy] says:
lately, as in .. the past few weeks
CatDog [moggy] says:
i've simply been out of ideas on how to approach you or anything
CatDog [moggy] says:
you've been feelign ..displaced. i have no idea how to address it. you wouldn't just.. let me in or anything.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
probably cause I just gave up.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
You know, shit started to hit the fan
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
you never, EVER went down on me, even when I asked.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
even when we had a dental dam available
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
no, 'it would make things weird'
CatDog [moggy] says:
i'd rather do it for real
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
bullshit, why couldnt you do it just to gratify me?
CatDog [moggy] says:
but i guess. you're done with me then.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
Every. Fucking. Time I fucked you, I did it to please you
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
what was I? An inconvenience to you?
CatDog [moggy] says:
no way.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
Fuck you, seriously.
CatDog [moggy] says:
i love you
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
No.
CatDog [moggy] says:
you were the one who told me that i was an inconvenience in the firstp lace
CatDog [moggy] says:
that was something i never thoguht about to begin with
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
What the fuck, since when?
CatDog [moggy] says:
you told me that like. .a week or two ago
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
how
CatDog [moggy] says:
you told me that being in a relationship altogether felt like an inconvenience
CatDog [moggy] says:
and not once did i ever say that
CatDog [moggy] says:
....despite all the shit that was in our way
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
what the flying shit?
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
I never said that
CatDog [moggy] says:
you did
CatDog [moggy] says:
remember when you todl me to tell you how i felt
CatDog [moggy] says:
and then you'd tell me how you felt..
CatDog [moggy] says:
everything thats stopping us being together.. felt like such an inconvenience
CatDog [moggy] says:
all i needed to hear was "it's okay.. i'll be patient iwth it" then may be i would've acted otherwise tonight.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
...
CatDog [moggy] says:
an right now i really dont know what the fuck i'm saying
CatDog [moggy] says:
i'm just triyng to recall stuff that happened a week or two ago
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
How... dare you expect more patience.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
After the lack of patience you gave me, and the amount I gave you?
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
Fuck this.
CatDog [moggy] says:
how come you never asked me to be more patient with you, then?
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
Because I was scared about you flying into a bitch fit
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
I had to tread lightly around you
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
I had to make sure you wouldn't snap
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
you know what? I couldn't give a flying shit anymore.
CatDog [moggy] says:
so is it like you were fucking misterable for the past month?
CatDog [moggy] says:
and you never told me?
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
How could I?
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
When I had to deal with your shit all the time?
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
Boo frickledy hoo, my mother is being an evil cow again
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
Bawww I am so miserable!
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
Bah
CatDog [moggy] says:
easy: just tell me to stop and i will
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
Alright then
CatDog [moggy] says:
just tell me you've had a hard day or wahtever, and i will stop
CatDog [moggy] says:
just be fucking hoenst with me
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
Stop being involved right now.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
Get out.
CatDog [moggy] says:
tell me whatever your'e feeling.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
I don't want you to be near me for a long while.
CatDog [moggy] says:
fine.
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
I don't want to ever get close to you again.
CatDog [moggy] says:
if thats what you want
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
it is exactly what I want.
CatDog [moggy] says:
okat
CatDog [moggy] says:
*okay
CatDog [moggy] says:
oh yeah.. i was meant to say... when you said you didn't want me being miserable because of this... you were right
CatDog [moggy] says:
i didnt want it either
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
I'm sure
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
Being miserable and upset sucks.
CatDog [moggy] says:
yeah. it does
CatDog [moggy] says:
...
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
Yeah. I can't imagine how you must be feeling.
CatDog [moggy] says:
like you said, we're done.
CatDog [moggy] says:
and like you said, i fucked up.
CatDog [moggy] says:
end of story.
CatDog [moggy] says:
i'l deal with it
Kathspleen the Terrible says:
good. book closed.