I'm not in love, you know it's not love.
Love's an excuse to get hurt. Wow Bright Eyes are really right.
Nothing's ever working anymore. I think I should just forget about relationships for a long time. Besides, nobodys interested in me anyways.
Sigh. I don't even know what to do anymore. It hurts so much to loose the one person you love, and then when you start falling again it's like someone pushes you back up past the edge and you aren't falling anymore.
Guys can be such jerks. You know if you wanted a guys night you could have told us, we would have left, rather than waste our night. But I guess we had fun by ourselves, with me smelling like citrus man, rolling around on the grass, getting grass stains from Megan, old people thinking we were stalking them and telling us not to take shit from the guys, saying I love.. and adding whatever we could find written on the inside of the hut thing in the playground.. I LOVE MUKE.. no wait.. I LOVE MIKE haha oh my. And the random sex in the forest where I paid you six cents for two times haha. You know whats weird, the person who actually TOLD Megan and I to come didn't even say hi to us, even though I said hi to him. You obviously know who you are, and the fact you did nothing to even change that. I'm glad Megan and I left, we had more fun with our misfortune in the field where I wripped my pants and couldn't get my bike to work, but I dont know why we even had to waste our night.
Why do guys have to act like bigger jerks infront of their friends when alone they can be such sweethearts? Honestly, It could kill some of you to be nicer to your girlfriends.
No this is not a hate email at a person who may think it is a hate email who'se girlfriend was at my house last night, you know who you are, but I just want to let you know that we didn't even mean to make fun of you. We were just having fun. Every guy is like that. And if they made fun of you for that I'm sorry but we didn't mean for it to be like that and we can't control how your friends take it. If we could take it back we would okay, but you didn't have to ignore us for the whole night. I hope you know she was really upset and she is trying to be there for you but you fail to see that. Anyways you two should talk this out and not just ignore it all.
Mall with Abby today. Shopping should take my brain off of all of this shit. I think I'm just going to drown myself in ice cream if that's even possible, oh well it doesn't hurt to try.
*I wish I could just make you turn around, turn around and see me cry. There's so much I need to say to you, so many reasons why. You're the only one who really knew me at all, so take a look at me now, there's just an empty space. There's nothing left here to remind me, just the memory of your face. Take a look at me now, there's just an empty space, and to wait for you is all I can do. And that's what I've got to face.*
That's how I feel about one person right now.
Thank you and have a nice day