a month of internal debate...

[schitzofrantic]

The past month (as many of u might have noticed) I have been quite a bit more internal... and quite a bit more thoughtful, about myself.. I realised that I really didn't know who I was. It scared me. I have hid too many feelings away inside, and it has made me pretty much numb to ervything. All negative emotion and thought was locked away where

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Is anyone here prepared to say
"Just what they mean or is it too late?
For anyone here to try to do
Just what is takes to get through to you

So let's all make believe
That we're still friends and we like each other
Let's all make believe
In the end we're gonna need each other "

[skate111]

I see. You confirmed something that you wouldn't understand and that in your wording doesn't even exist

[prayersforrai]

tension, anyone?
ouch. ouch... ouccchhh!!!
its all been a downward spiral...

"I'm dating Rachel and love her to death"
LOVE ISNT REAL.
ADAM taught me this.
couchcoughypocritecough

[skate111]

...I love a lot of people.

[schitzofrantic]

hmmm, where to begin... No place better than the start I guess. If "in my wording" this something does not exist, in which wording and context would it? Which test might it have been off of? Also, I must appologize, I meant to include a clause which would explain that your supposed attraction(?) to me could have been a thing of the past and not still exist (although I'm sure it doesn't now..more than ever). Also, I love how u assume things, the past week at lunch has been spent making up tests and the like. Mornings I have been woring on a Spanish project, afternoons as well. As for hanging out with other people, i realised that I haven't really talked to many other people that I feel are nice and good people, another side efect both of the approaching end of the year, and of my period of quiet contemplation. I still believe, though I may be mistaken, that people I was friends with are still my friend. Who knows, if a bump in the road such as this causes them to dissasociate with me and quit calling themselves my friend, then they

[kitty_online]

Be what you wanna be Zach. Always remember what Frank say's: "Don't dream it be it"
ya know I love ya :0)

[fallenzero]

i love you.