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Wow... school... is yucky... new words that are fun:
narfing
gar
gah
chica
hoyo
hilo
catchoo
frisca
1. I hold grudges for a long long time.
2. I try everything i can to avoid going home after school.
3. I went to Laurel for 3 years, and hated it.
4. I love my dog more than anything else in the world, and if she died i have no idea what i'd do.
5. I spend more time crying over my family then i do over my friends.
6. If i can't talk to people, or at least know that they're easily a phone call away, i panic.
7. My mom thinks i'm going to get fat, and often won't let me eat when i'm hungry.
8. I trust people way too easily.
9. I write songs and poetry almost everyday.
10. I never draw just to draw, usually there's an emotion behind it.
11. I'm terrified of moving again.
12. I'm scared of the dark, do to a stupid brother's "joke".
13. I'm addicted to poking people at random moments. Can't seem to stop...
14. Everytime i hug someone, i never want to let go.
15. I get into some sort of argument with NateO every morning.
16. I try my hardest to help people, even the ones i hate.
17. I'm jelous of the girls who can eat a ton and not gain a pound.
18. I'm obsessed with music. it's my life.
19. I have dreams of things before they happen, like deja vu, 'cept i remember them.
20. Part of me still calls Minnesota home.
21. I am a romantic, and usually rush into love.
22. And that's usually not good. ^
23. I hate when the past won't stay there.
24. I often doubt my faith in God, because many of my beliefs aren't christian.
25. I often find myself thinking in French.
26. I don't really HATE anyone, just strongly dislike.
27. I can never tell one person everything, for fear of being betrayed.
28. I believe in body, mind and spirit.
29. I believe in soul mates.
30. I have been in love 3 times.
31. I don't believe what i've gone through is real suffering.
32. I love snow, to the point that i wait all summer wishing it would snow.
33. I hold to my beliefs, and defend them.
34. I get defensive over the littlest things.
35. My eyes change color.
36. I've lost many friends, because of romantic relationships.
37. I hate liers, and being fooled.
38. I hate car rides.
39. I still sleep with several stuffed animals.
40. I interpret dreams, and sometimes i know things before other people do because of that.
41. I'm terrified of not living up to my potential, and i don't even know what that is.
As she sleeps she twitches
Trying to run
deep steady breaths
pausing as she lifts her lips
Snarling at a dream
her eyes half closed
whites showing
blinking as the rush of wind
the dream like wind
blows her ears back
they do not move
her breath growing faster
but... she does not tire
suddenly she pounces on that dream
that rabbit
she wakes with a start
she had fallen through the rabbit
it was never there
she opens her eyes
looks at the girl who strokes her head,
lying in bed,
writing about her dog.
Confidance in the right things
confident in the wrong things
taking the path in the wrong direction
losing all hope of relief
Mistakes cannot be taken back
And they take a while to heal
and friends you hurt will take a while
to trust and love again
thinking though it's new to you
is something you should do
what you say is there for good
and what you've said is wrong
One grew to two
then was dropped back to one
there was a half
then a none
then a one
then a none
now a two
who would have guessed so much can happen
friends grow closer
feelings change
people change
memories flood in
as the new year begins
Hit in the head
stand
collapse again
images flooding through
choking
can't think
fighting tears
living in the past
some things
are better left
alone.
Exhaustion
Don't call after me
Let me go
I'm tired
I can't deal with this
I don't want to deal with this
Don't call after me
I'm not coming back
Don't chase after me
I won't listen
Let me go
I'm tired
Let me know
When it's over
that last one was actually at this party we went to, and i was tired, and ran upstairs, and blah blah blah my parents were mad.
narfing
gar
gah
chica
hoyo
hilo
catchoo
frisca
1. I hold grudges for a long long time.
2. I try everything i can to avoid going home after school.
3. I went to Laurel for 3 years, and hated it.
4. I love my dog more than anything else in the world, and if she died i have no idea what i'd do.
5. I spend more time crying over my family then i do over my friends.
6. If i can't talk to people, or at least know that they're easily a phone call away, i panic.
7. My mom thinks i'm going to get fat, and often won't let me eat when i'm hungry.
8. I trust people way too easily.
9. I write songs and poetry almost everyday.
10. I never draw just to draw, usually there's an emotion behind it.
11. I'm terrified of moving again.
12. I'm scared of the dark, do to a stupid brother's "joke".
13. I'm addicted to poking people at random moments. Can't seem to stop...
14. Everytime i hug someone, i never want to let go.
15. I get into some sort of argument with NateO every morning.
16. I try my hardest to help people, even the ones i hate.
17. I'm jelous of the girls who can eat a ton and not gain a pound.
18. I'm obsessed with music. it's my life.
19. I have dreams of things before they happen, like deja vu, 'cept i remember them.
20. Part of me still calls Minnesota home.
21. I am a romantic, and usually rush into love.
22. And that's usually not good. ^
23. I hate when the past won't stay there.
24. I often doubt my faith in God, because many of my beliefs aren't christian.
25. I often find myself thinking in French.
26. I don't really HATE anyone, just strongly dislike.
27. I can never tell one person everything, for fear of being betrayed.
28. I believe in body, mind and spirit.
29. I believe in soul mates.
30. I have been in love 3 times.
31. I don't believe what i've gone through is real suffering.
32. I love snow, to the point that i wait all summer wishing it would snow.
33. I hold to my beliefs, and defend them.
34. I get defensive over the littlest things.
35. My eyes change color.
36. I've lost many friends, because of romantic relationships.
37. I hate liers, and being fooled.
38. I hate car rides.
39. I still sleep with several stuffed animals.
40. I interpret dreams, and sometimes i know things before other people do because of that.
41. I'm terrified of not living up to my potential, and i don't even know what that is.
As she sleeps she twitches
Trying to run
deep steady breaths
pausing as she lifts her lips
Snarling at a dream
her eyes half closed
whites showing
blinking as the rush of wind
the dream like wind
blows her ears back
they do not move
her breath growing faster
but... she does not tire
suddenly she pounces on that dream
that rabbit
she wakes with a start
she had fallen through the rabbit
it was never there
she opens her eyes
looks at the girl who strokes her head,
lying in bed,
writing about her dog.
Confidance in the right things
confident in the wrong things
taking the path in the wrong direction
losing all hope of relief
Mistakes cannot be taken back
And they take a while to heal
and friends you hurt will take a while
to trust and love again
thinking though it's new to you
is something you should do
what you say is there for good
and what you've said is wrong
One grew to two
then was dropped back to one
there was a half
then a none
then a one
then a none
now a two
who would have guessed so much can happen
friends grow closer
feelings change
people change
memories flood in
as the new year begins
Hit in the head
stand
collapse again
images flooding through
choking
can't think
fighting tears
living in the past
some things
are better left
alone.
Exhaustion
Don't call after me
Let me go
I'm tired
I can't deal with this
I don't want to deal with this
Don't call after me
I'm not coming back
Don't chase after me
I won't listen
Let me go
I'm tired
Let me know
When it's over
that last one was actually at this party we went to, and i was tired, and ran upstairs, and blah blah blah my parents were mad.