Hold An Old Friend's Hand...
Just got this email from My Ryan...I thought I would share...
*sniffle*
I can't really think of many words to express how this makes me feel...
All I feel is love...and loved...
And that feels good right now.
I'm really sorry I didn't get back to you sooner on this one. I really feel for you, and I wish I could give you answers to God's puzzles...but the fact that you have faith proves that you are in the right frame of mind. The fact that you have faith in me really makes me happy-you can't even imagine! But, remember that it's hard to see strength in yourself. I can't see anything but the bad in myself...but yet you come along and see good and you are proud. Just remember that you too are amazing, but you just can't see it. Sometimes the greatest people have the lowest self image. That's God playing tricks on us...funny right?
I can't really answer any of the "why" questions for you and I can't answer them for myself either. But, I do know that "what" we do is who we are and what you are doing is selfless and loving. Given your situation, you have the choice of bolting and fending for yourself. Instead you choose to give and not take, and I really believe that deep in the spiritual world you are moving mountains. Why do things happen the way they do? Damn it, I wish I knew. I have some questions for God when I die. But I really believe that the good hearted choose wisely. You can't control what happens to you or your mom. But you can control how you react to it. And I think you are doing everything right. You are taking care of her, and you are talking out your frustrations with a friend. Most would tear up the town in anger, but you are a much deeper soul, and for that I do believe you will be rewarded. When? I don't know. But it comes around kid. Here on earth, or in the afterlife. Yeah, I had some wine. =) Prayer, talking, writing. These are all the best remedies for your situation. Not working well enough? I know, I struggle too. BUT, your life is enriching and meaningful. You know what it is to love, and to hurt, and to suffer. Britney Spears may have all the money in the world, but her true experiences are lacking. It's almost as if, the more you suffer, the closer you get to God. Whoa, I'm really feeling' this wine now.
I just want to say that I really admire your character and strength. You are a true leader in this world whether you receive recognition or not. OK, I'm getting too philosophical and mushy.
Night, and I hope you feel better.
Ryan
*sniffle*
I can't really think of many words to express how this makes me feel...
All I feel is love...and loved...
And that feels good right now.
I'm really sorry I didn't get back to you sooner on this one. I really feel for you, and I wish I could give you answers to God's puzzles...but the fact that you have faith proves that you are in the right frame of mind. The fact that you have faith in me really makes me happy-you can't even imagine! But, remember that it's hard to see strength in yourself. I can't see anything but the bad in myself...but yet you come along and see good and you are proud. Just remember that you too are amazing, but you just can't see it. Sometimes the greatest people have the lowest self image. That's God playing tricks on us...funny right?
I can't really answer any of the "why" questions for you and I can't answer them for myself either. But, I do know that "what" we do is who we are and what you are doing is selfless and loving. Given your situation, you have the choice of bolting and fending for yourself. Instead you choose to give and not take, and I really believe that deep in the spiritual world you are moving mountains. Why do things happen the way they do? Damn it, I wish I knew. I have some questions for God when I die. But I really believe that the good hearted choose wisely. You can't control what happens to you or your mom. But you can control how you react to it. And I think you are doing everything right. You are taking care of her, and you are talking out your frustrations with a friend. Most would tear up the town in anger, but you are a much deeper soul, and for that I do believe you will be rewarded. When? I don't know. But it comes around kid. Here on earth, or in the afterlife. Yeah, I had some wine. =) Prayer, talking, writing. These are all the best remedies for your situation. Not working well enough? I know, I struggle too. BUT, your life is enriching and meaningful. You know what it is to love, and to hurt, and to suffer. Britney Spears may have all the money in the world, but her true experiences are lacking. It's almost as if, the more you suffer, the closer you get to God. Whoa, I'm really feeling' this wine now.
I just want to say that I really admire your character and strength. You are a true leader in this world whether you receive recognition or not. OK, I'm getting too philosophical and mushy.
Night, and I hope you feel better.
Ryan