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So the past few days, Andrew has been signing on to AIM. Yeah, THE Andrew. I don't even know why I have him on my buddy list, what with it being a new screen name and all, but whatever. I haven't seen him online at least since I got this sn.

For some reason, I want to talk to him. None of it hurts anymore, and I don't need any closure to be happy.

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i don't know what, exactly, happened with you and him.
but from what i've gathered, it's exactly what i'm going through right now.

except i was best friends with mine for 4 years, and we dated for a year and six months.

[schmerli]

He cheated on me. With two different girls. The first time, I pretended I didn't believe it. The second time..wow. Between those two girls, he cheated on me for a year of our two year relationship.

It sucked. But I'm over it

[static__sound]

you're a strong girl.
Corey cheated on me as well.

i admire you.

[schmerli]

It's..devastating, isn't it? I didn't eat for days after I found out. How are you holding up?

[schmerli]

Yeah I mean I know nothing would be really accomplished by talking to him, but I'm always, always going to have an emotional attachment to him. I'll always care about him, and so it is still somewhat important to me that I know he's okay. And, I don't really think it's that I want to rub it in his face that I'm happy - it would be almost like telling him he doesn't need to feel guilty about anything if he ever does want to talk.

I don't know. I'm not going to like pursue it and try to make him talk to me, but I would like to be at a point where we can be okay. A lot of that is because I want to visit his sister when she comes back from Russia, too.