Another Happy Birthday to Martha
Well, I watched Phonebooth yesterday. And the end of that movie made me realize their were so many things I had to be sorry for. And so many people I need to apologize to. So its almost the end of the school year and before high school I want to let the following people know that I'm sorry and what for.
Kenny- I know you don't want to hear and you probably stopped caring awhile ago, but I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm a bitch. And I'm sorry I can't just let things be. I'm sure you know I've said it and I'm sorry I've said I hated you. I'm sorry for everything I ever said. I'm sorry for so much I can't even begin. You were such a good friend to me and I threw it all away. Sorry. I really am. And I know you hate me and I'm not trying to get you to like me, I just want you to know I'm sorry for everything.
Martha- I'm sorry for all the attempts I've never made. It always seems like I'm losing you. Everyday goes by and it seems like we talk less and less. And I'm sorry for not fixing it. I'm sorry for making you feel like I didn't care. But I do. And I'm sorry for everytime you've been hurt and I haven't been there. I'm so so sorry.
Mark- I don't even know why I'm sorry. But I am. I'm ever so sorry. Maybe because I always felt like I was a burden to you. Like I was always annoying you. Always trying to hard. And I'm sorry if I ever got on your nerves or pissed you off. But I just loved you so fucking much. So much I stopped caring how you might feel. I'm also sorry we don't talk anymore. I'm sorry I told myself you hated me. I'm sorry.
Cait- I know you love me. I just do. But I'm so fucking sorry I'm not a good friend to you. You've been the best to me. Better than anyone ever could. You've always been there. And I'm never there for you. I'm so sorry I'm just letting us slowly break apart. I love you and I always will. I want to be there and I want to be best friends, and I'm sorry I'm not...
Francis- I'm sorry I was mean to you on my journal and I made that club. I know I've told you a million times, but I still feel bad. Sorry again. And I'm sorry you don't have a long paragraph...
Current Friends {such as Ali, Mel, Michelle, Lauren, Kris, and Kaitie.}- Sorry I'm such a bad friend sometimes. And sorry I scare you at times. And Sorry I don't tell you I love you more than words can say enough. Sorry if I exclude you at times. Sorry for every time I ever hurt you. And Kait- sorry I don't call a lot anymore.
Old Friends {such as Tori and Susie and pretty much anyone I was friends with in 6th grade}- Hey... Long time no see. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everytime I blamed everything on you. I'm sorry for everytime I called you a bitch. Everytime I said I hated you. Everytime I said that I wish I never met you. Truth is. Your not a bitch. You didnt cause anything. And I'm so happy I met you. All you did was make my life great. And it just ended. All good things come to an end. And it just so happens I didn't want it to. I couldn't stand it. I'm sorry. You've done nothing wrong.
I'm sorry for using anyone's name who didn't want to be mentioned. I'm sorry if people didn't want this to be read. I'm sorry if people didn't want me to say the things I did.