well.. ive had a headache for three days.. i guess thats a sign that something bad was gonna happen... and then today it knida went away.. and then something that made me feel even shitty happened... but i should have felt it coming.. because i stopped doubting.. i finally felt like you truely and honestly cared about me and that you wanted to be ( Read more... )

i hate the fact that i only use livejournal to vent and to let out how much i hate the world ( Read more... )

hmm.. so i cant wait for the weekend to come! there is a party that i am going to with paulina and them on saturday.. which i am excited about!! o man... and then sunday i am hoping to hang out with ryan for valentines day since he has a show on monday.. but whatever happens happens... all i know is that i am planning and hoping that i am going to ( Read more... )

i hate that people walk all over me.. do i not matter?

free me
as i gaze through my window
wondering what will i find now
as the wind blows
blows me to nothingness here

save me
let me hear what your saying
as i wait in the darkness
while the moon speaks
i am not what you thought

love me
bring me back to this life now
while my breath shakes
and the rain falls
i cry in my heart

hm.. well lets see.. this sunday is paulinas birthday and i am going with her and kara to top notch.. im excited.. i cant wait until my birthday!! woot woot!! theres really nothing else going on that would intrest anyone else so i might as well not put it down.. byes

In times of grief and sorrow i will hold you and rock you,                                                                                                and take your grief and make it my own.                                                                                                                        when you cry, i cry, and when you ( Read more... )

i dont know what people want from me... it seems like i have disappointed everyone around me and i can't do anything right...

well today i got to hang out with my soon to be room mate!! we had alot of fun!! i cant wait till we room together.. other than that my day was pretty good.. i found out some stuff about people that im not to happy about.. but what can u do.. nothing.. but yea.. once again im happy!! lets count how many days it lasts... today day 1

sometimes things just happen for a reason... if it didnt happen i wouldnt have realized who really cares.. and how much justin means to me...

thank you