Entry 28
I will not be attending the dance. There are things I need to do.
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The icon says it all. I brought the one human in the world that ever considered me something more than just a walking computer back...and he hates me. I lost my very best friend in the entire world. There is no data available to me...none...that describes just how I feel about that. In fact...I don't want to feel at all. Not right now. I just want to shut down and function like I did before...Before I met everyone..Before he wondered into the basement and found me there.
Logically, I know it's not my fault, yet there is so much data pointing to it being just that. Had I said something...Had I stood up and defended him with everything I was instead of foolishly believing that he would be "okay" like he said he would be..
What is more...he is going to tell the Association about me...About my being a traitor. I am....afraid. Because I know too much. I make their weapons for them. I'm too valuable to lose yet too dangerous to live. It won't be a basement if the Accociation decides me enough of a threat. They won't kill me, but I will never see the light of day again, 100%.
I have a contengency plan in place. Oshitari Yuushi has agreed to allow me to set up shop in a location controlled and protected by himself. Doing so will put him in great danger but it would be illogical to turn down the offer. My biggest concern is that other vampires won't be as welcoming to me as Yuushi is.
But right now is not the time for this. Right now, I must start working on moving the needed items from the Association lab to my secret lab here on campus without them suspecting.
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The icon says it all. I brought the one human in the world that ever considered me something more than just a walking computer back...and he hates me. I lost my very best friend in the entire world. There is no data available to me...none...that describes just how I feel about that. In fact...I don't want to feel at all. Not right now. I just want to shut down and function like I did before...Before I met everyone..Before he wondered into the basement and found me there.
Logically, I know it's not my fault, yet there is so much data pointing to it being just that. Had I said something...Had I stood up and defended him with everything I was instead of foolishly believing that he would be "okay" like he said he would be..
What is more...he is going to tell the Association about me...About my being a traitor. I am....afraid. Because I know too much. I make their weapons for them. I'm too valuable to lose yet too dangerous to live. It won't be a basement if the Accociation decides me enough of a threat. They won't kill me, but I will never see the light of day again, 100%.
I have a contengency plan in place. Oshitari Yuushi has agreed to allow me to set up shop in a location controlled and protected by himself. Doing so will put him in great danger but it would be illogical to turn down the offer. My biggest concern is that other vampires won't be as welcoming to me as Yuushi is.
But right now is not the time for this. Right now, I must start working on moving the needed items from the Association lab to my secret lab here on campus without them suspecting.