Losing Hope
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I can’t take this anymore. No one understands that I just want to be alone. I can’t handle the emotions that have swamped me in the past three months. I’m not the person I once was. I actually feel things now and I still don’t know if I like it or not. I know I act as if I do but that… that doesn’t change the burden inside me. And Deidara… oh Deidara I am so sorry. I wish I could openly apologize to you for not being there for you. And TenTen… I wasn’t there for you either. I can only apologize in my private thoughts, the thoughts you’ll never hear. I’m sorry Sakura… I’m sorry but this is for you and the baby’s own good… I wish I could hold you and tell you to be patient but you wouldn’t understand. You are so bull headed and determined to stick by my side even if it means you could die. I cannot control myself and I’m sure I might hurt someone in my current state. I wouldn’t be able to live with myself if I caused any of you physical harm… I’ve really changed… used to I wouldn’t care if I hurt someone or not. Dammit! I can’t take this! Maybe if I should go to the studio for a while before Deidara gets back to the frat house. And Itachi better hope I don’t see him anytime soon… I hope you are safe Sakura…
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--Sasori
I can’t take this anymore. No one understands that I just want to be alone. I can’t handle the emotions that have swamped me in the past three months. I’m not the person I once was. I actually feel things now and I still don’t know if I like it or not. I know I act as if I do but that… that doesn’t change the burden inside me. And Deidara… oh Deidara I am so sorry. I wish I could openly apologize to you for not being there for you. And TenTen… I wasn’t there for you either. I can only apologize in my private thoughts, the thoughts you’ll never hear. I’m sorry Sakura… I’m sorry but this is for you and the baby’s own good… I wish I could hold you and tell you to be patient but you wouldn’t understand. You are so bull headed and determined to stick by my side even if it means you could die. I cannot control myself and I’m sure I might hurt someone in my current state. I wouldn’t be able to live with myself if I caused any of you physical harm… I’ve really changed… used to I wouldn’t care if I hurt someone or not. Dammit! I can’t take this! Maybe if I should go to the studio for a while before Deidara gets back to the frat house. And Itachi better hope I don’t see him anytime soon… I hope you are safe Sakura…
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--Sasori