Having gained a little perspective by
A) Finally getting some sleep.....
and
B) The love and support of my friends, to say nothing of the good advice, research and so forth....
Thank you so VERY much, ALL of you!
I "called in sick" to my life Sunday, took a flexeril (a muscle relaxant I sometimes take for an old back injury) and slept all day. I am feeling much better, or at least MUCH less hysterical.
Apparently, there IS something that can be done with this disease. It is just that it may take a very long time, and it often doesn't work. Doc Todd says that when he was in school, they had a cat with them for six months before she was finally healthy. BUT....Todd told me that as far as HE is concerned, we ARE going to win. She is not removing the feeding tube this time, and they are proceeding with treatment. He does feel that we caught this early enough to combat it.
So I guess that for now, I am leaving her where she can be helped. I will just have to take it a day at a time and make decisions as they come. They are doing blood tests every once in awhile and all of her "numbers" are good.....Todd said that means she is healthy apart from this problem, (her hyperthryoidism is under control with the meds she's been taking) and he has factored that into the decision HE made to press ahead with treatment.
From what I have read, this isn't necessarily terminal. And 'katsu tells me that his cat had this when they found her and is still with him five years later. This gives me hope, as I had never met anyone personally who actually had a cat live through this....everyone I talked to before him? Their cat died. You know....it is much easier to believe something is possible if you know someone who lived through it than if you just read it online or in a book. And it was pointed out to me that possibly the reason the death rate is so high is that many owners cannot or aren't willing to invest the kind of money it can cost to fix this problem. I can certainly understand this, and I don't think I could hang on through six months of treatment either. BUT...maybe it won't take that long. Maybe we'll be lucky.
At any rate, for now I am going to hang in there.
Thank you again for all of your support and good wishes. You really are the best, and we are lucky to have you in our lives.
My Love,
Cheri
Cross-posted from the UB