Today will be day 8 of not eating meat...
I feel a little better...i'm not sure why. I don't feel sick whenever I stuff myself. Which is nice. I can't explain it.

I'm sure this is just a phase ever since I went into the meat room at work and had to leave when I  puked at the sight of a massive chunk of steak dripping with blood........ew.ew.ew.ew.ew ( Read more... )

I never considered myself lucky...

But I dont think i could get any luckier than I am to have met him.

I'm so happy

I know I lost wieght. I know I did.

I've lost 20 pounds since last september...

I just saw my boss from the pizza place that I havent seen since I dunno....January maybe?? and I walked threw the door and he was like "You lost weight!!"

weird. I never knew I was that much of a fat ass...which I still am, just not as much I guess. oh well.

This is what I've come to realize this winter while living in Providence ( Read more... )

Valentines Day was better when I was single...

I at least knew I was alone, now I just feel it.

I just can't win.

there is a slip and slide on the first floor...plastic tarp down the whole hallway...water, soup, bathing suits...

welcome to college life

I just wrote about, a good hours worth of stuff about everything, and accidently pushed the back button...

So, i'll leave it with the last sentence I remember...

...I would fly to the moon for him if it meant he could get everything he deserved. Because he deserves the world, and nothing less.

well, it's been a while since I left anything ( Read more... )

I was afraid to be alone ( Read more... )

Hanging out with the friends I've made so far.
Getting drunk at the bar.
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It wont make anything feel better.
The only thing that will cure this unsettling feeling of...everything...will be coming by train on friday or saturday.
God, you got me this far...
Please, just make him come this far for me, too.