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Jun 13, 2002 13:42

Over the last few weeks, I've been doing some serious thinking... I don't really fit in with anyone that I have been calling my friends over the last few years.

Read me if you want to. If you don't, thats your choice. )

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ex_evil June 13 2002, 17:51:28 UTC
well I don't know if I can see it or not, but you know I'm always here for you, and I wouldn't mind seeing the entries.

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You ain't going to like this but it needs to be said... khayman June 13 2002, 19:30:27 UTC
What do you want us to say, Samantha? Hmmm?

This isn't going to be a nice reply, much less what you want to hear but it's going to be filled with sentiments that several of us have been feeling but keeping to ourselves because we're nice. Fuck that, I'm tired of being nice, me being nice isn't doing you jack or shit. I won't speak for anyone else but me, and if you decide that you want to address these things that I bring up, that's your choice and your fight. I may be the messenger but I'm not going to fight it with you. Don't depend on me to pull you through this or be your sage to bounce your self-help ideas off of if this somehow motivates you. I've got my own issues to fix.

You're asking why you feel abandoned, I'm going to give you several reasons you've alienated usSo now that we're on the same page, let me begin ( ... )

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You ain't going to like this but it needs to be said... khayman June 13 2002, 19:31:19 UTC
You find these guys who you don't really check out too well or get to know too well before you sleep with them. Then you get surprised when they're assholes
and you think "why do I always find the bad guys?".

You go looking for them.I think you want to take the cheap fling and turn it into the sweet ( ... )

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You ain't going to like this but it needs to be said... pt 3 khayman June 13 2002, 19:31:44 UTC
So how should you seek attention and affection and love? Drop the dishonesty. Think rationally and realistically about how things affect you. Ask yourself if these will be big issues a week from now, a month from now, a year from now... Get perspective. Realize that any form of manipulation of others is totally unreasonable and in unquestionably bad taste. Learn from your mistakes. When something hurts you and upsets you, see what you can learn from this situation. I've just given you a slap to the face, and I've intended it to sting. Do you want to conclude that I'm just an asshole and toss what I've said out the window or do you want to learn and possibly become someone who doesn't drive your friends away? When you sleep with a guy and he doesn't treat you how you wanted to be treated, what can you learn from that? I won't spell it out for you, you have to do the work on your own. But don't just accept it as "Well I got screwed" or "He's just a jerk". Learn from it and how to keep guys from being jerks or how to keep ( ... )

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aluminumdreams June 16 2002, 13:35:11 UTC


It takes balls and decency to come forward with such honesty, however brutal it might be. I commend you for trying to get your point across & hopefully teach a lesson, as opposed to talking shit and/or just being an asshole.

last summer in tampa I had a friend who did much the same with me. He basically talked it out over an uncomfortably long and analytical phone call. And despite my humiliation and being forced to come to terms with reality, I realized i had to change. Had to. so thanks again out to him, and to you for giving it your best shot.

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Re: khayman June 16 2002, 14:21:16 UTC
~smile~

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