so, i met with a charming, handsome agent at parkmerced this morning. he showed me some townhouses- one bedrooms at about fifteen hundred, and two bedrooms at about two grand. since diane and i are on a tight budget, we decided we are going to take a one bedroom. the kids [pets] are more than welcome. and as far as splitting up the space goes, i ( Read more... )

i am filling out my FAFSA super late ( Read more... )

i dreamed that my nana was resurrected. she came back to life, and she hated me for not believing in a god. slowly, the rest of my family began to alienate me for the same reason. i awoke terrified and depressed. i contemplated waking randy up so he could tell me everything would be alright. but i just ran my fingers through his hair and stared at ( Read more... )

we took separate cars to the funeral. crystal rode with my mom and jim, and nicole and kyle rode with me. we drove my nana's car out to the cemetery. we were blasting some weird country music and making up fake lyrics about how our wives left us and we were taking a week off from our construction jobs so we could drive our pick-up trucks out for a ( Read more... )

last night, i dreamed that the fabulous uh4_17 went to my high school. he passed me a note between classes telling me he was fond of me. i think that rivetprince wanted to take me to a merzbow show and buy me a black cherry slushy or something. i remember hanging out at school, and then in one class, i went to the back of the class to change ( Read more... )

yesterday, the primary doctor told us that, even if my nana did pull through, there would be little to no chance of her ever walking, feeding herself, et cetera. we decided we had to let her go. my mother gave them permission to take her off life support. they pulled all of the plugs and tubes out of her, and we were let back into the room to say ( Read more... )

here is the truth- my nana is the only one who ever really tried to save me. even my own mother didn't try. my father was very abusive, and my mother just turned away from it. she knew it was happening; she was just too chicken to stand up for me, or to call someone ( Read more... )

crystal has been such a sweet little angel since i told her off. really- a real princess, just like she used to be. i know that all those things i told her were harsh, but they were necessary ( Read more... )

today, they lowered the dosage of the paralytic drugs they have nana on. tomorrow, they lower the dosage of the sedatives. the next day, they again lower the paralytics- the following day, they again lower the sedatives, and so on and so forth. at some point, she should come around.

should.then we'll get an accurate diagnosis- see exactly how much ( Read more... )

first of all, i want to point at how wonderful it is that a lady i've met a handful of times would offer a helping hand in a time of need. seriously. al[l]ison just putting herself out there to say, 'hey. dude. i'm here if you need me,' is so generous, selfless, and endearing. thank you, m'lady. <3 ( Read more... )