[REPOST]; Drabble Series 01
No names. No specific pairings. Just words, thoughts, songs, feelings.
01. She was the wallpaper of my cellphone.
She was the wallpaper of my cellphone. Her bright smile will greet me every time I check my phone, and a smile of my own would find its way to my lips. She was just so bright, something almost ethereal in her radiant beauty.
And yet she isn't mine to keep.
I see her again, arm in arm with another man. The man that she has chosen to love. She sees me and waves at my direction. As I raised my arm to wave back, I realized with a pang that she will only see me in this way: her ever-present best friend. That she will never see me for who I really want to be for her: the man beside her right now.And though I could fool the world with my fake smiles, I knew that I could never foll my heart that will always be crying inside.
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He was the one that I really love. All pretenses aside, there was a time that I actually thought that I could never live without him by my side. He would smile at me through the lens of his ever-present camera, and I would simply smile back with my heart. Despite the circumstances, I fell in love with my stupid best friend, who couldn't get a clue even if it was staring at him in the face.
And yet he wasn't mine to keep.
I spot him staring aimlessly out onto space like he usually does, lost in his personal universe. I raised my hand and waved at him. He notices and waves back at me with a smile on his face. I have broken that trance, and yet he has casted his own spell on me.
The person beside me tapped my arm. Now my own spell was broken, I am back in the present world. I now love the man beside me, my best friend a bright memory in my heart, to be kept there forever.
And yet, I couldn't help but look back to that stupid best friend of mine. To what could have been. To all the 'what ifs' in my mind... to what could have been...
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She was the one that I have chosen to love. She possesses a unique kind of beauty that I would never find anywhere again. I loved her with every fiber of my being, and by some amazing twist of fate, she loved me too.
And yet she wasn't mine to keep.
She saw someone that she knew, and she raised her hand and waved. I looked at the direction she was waving at and saw her best friend waving back. He looked deep in thought, but nevertheless he smiled at her attention. Then he looked at me and gave me a small nod. It was the same time a greeting and a small threat, all packed into that simple gesture. Little did he know the real score among the three of us behind the scenes.
She lets her arm fall back and that expression take over her face. She was in another world again. That world between her and her best friend... That one guy that no matter how hard I try, I could never beat. He has a hold on her that would never be broken, a hold stronger than she would ever dare admit to herself. Yes, she was with me, but he has her in a way that I couldn't compete with...
Those two should really get a clue. And soon.
02. But sooner or later, the man who wins is the man who thinks he can.
I need to find a way to be with you. This feeling has got to stop. It has surpassed the stage of any excusable 'want' that I could rationalize. Before I knew it, you had captured me in a way that was beyond my comprehension. I want to be with you, and yet I know that it can't be. The perfect world in my mind... that perfect world I have created with you by my side... I want to have it if fate will permit, but that bodiless entity is the one causing all this mess from the start.
Why am I so determined to be with you in the first place? Is it your smile, the way you walk, the way you shine wherever you go like you have your own personal spotlight? Is it the way you make me feel whenever I'm with you? Is it simply because you are you?
My mind is confused; you seem at the same time both happy yet discontented. Would you allow me to be your personal sun? Or will these questions be forever left unanswered? Will I let you be or will you join me to fight our destinies together?
...But sooner or later, the man who wins is the man who thinks he can.
03. Only one word can break a heart.
Only one word can break a heart. And that word may not be the one that you imagine it to be. It may bring happiness to the one you love, but you might be hurting the one that loves you. And these persons may not be the same. You can't please everybody, yet there will come a time when you will have no choice but to make a choice. But what if you hold her smile as important above all... yet you can't stand to see the tears of the other?
Maybe if there was an option where no one would get hurt, you would have done it a long time ago.Or you wish you could be just numb to all emotion, incapable of feeling hurt or happy. Truly, that ignorance would indeed be bliss...
04. Just taking in air together without doing anything. If it's with the person I like, that alone is enough to make me happy.
Just taking in air together without doing anything. If it's with the person I like, that alone is enough to make me happy. No more elaborate settings, fancy words, or all that effort to make things just perfect; just you and me with no one else but ourselves to keep each other company. With you I really could be free, without having the feeling of catching my breath like I always do. Stress would melt away, tiredness would soon become a thing of the past. Floating in space with my head in the clouds, even being bored has lost its meaning when I'm being bored with you. :)
05. What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you?
I'm at the top of the world, successful as I can be. I've achieved everything that there is to achieve, got more than I could even dare ask for. I have dared to dream beyond my dreams.
And yet I still feel incomplete.
Another great achievement, I don't have you by my side. You were busy being happy with somebody else, building that dream home and making your dream family with the man of your dreams. As for me, the one thing I have ever dreamed of coming true has already fallen apart. That dream of mine will always be a dream, while your dreams are becoming your happy reality. Although people may envy me for how far I've come in my life, I know that the 'me' I could really be proud of was already stolen from me. By the girl of my dreams that I dream to turn into the girl of my reality.
What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you?
06. Forgiveness is surrendering my right to hurt you for hurting me.
Forgiveness is surrendering my right to hurt you for hurting me. How many time have you promised to change? How many times have you promised not to do the same thing again? How many broken promises have you made? How many times have you broken my heart? How many questions like this would it take before you'll get tired of playing with my feelings? How many times do I have to teach my heart to toughen itself up when it meets yours? How many times will I fall (once again) for that irresistible fake sincerity in your eyes? How many times will my heart take the disappointment that it was doomed to experience from the start? And when will these kind of questions ever stop themselves from being asked? Is there a time when they'll ever stop? Or will the time come that I could just stay away so I would never have to ask these questions ever again?
Will that time ever come...?
07. You never cared.
You never cared.
I stood in the rain outside the gate of your house, clutching the sodden bouquet of roses and my broken heart in my hands. Your bedroom light was open, signaling that you were there. Why won't you answer my calls? Why won't you at least hear me out? Why can't you try to understand? It was an honest mistake, something I did when my mind simply lost control. I never meant to hurt you, like what I promised that day.
It wasn't like I had a choice. I had to do what's meant for me to do.
My flight is less than twenty-four hours, and yet I'm still here. Waiting for that upstairs window to open so I could see just a glimpse of your face. After that... at least I could go...
I tried to call you again, and this time you answered. Your sweet voice was thick with something like sleep, a little rough but still music to my ears. Were you crying? I told you I was here. Suddenly, the front door opened and you came rushing out, the tears streaming down your face mingling with the rain. Never mind that I was wet to the bone. I caught you up in my arms and hugged you tight, never wanting this moment to end. There was a storm around us, yet I felt so calm. Despite the torrent of emotions running through my head and my heart, I may just have found my piece of heaven by your side.
...And I'm taking back what I said earlier. You did care... and maybe you just cared too much to see me go. But I really won't be going... Because I left my heart with you, that one stormy night...
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Aaaaaand the first part is done~ as I said, feel free to imagine any pair that you like :) Drop some comments? :3
01. She was the wallpaper of my cellphone.
She was the wallpaper of my cellphone. Her bright smile will greet me every time I check my phone, and a smile of my own would find its way to my lips. She was just so bright, something almost ethereal in her radiant beauty.
And yet she isn't mine to keep.
I see her again, arm in arm with another man. The man that she has chosen to love. She sees me and waves at my direction. As I raised my arm to wave back, I realized with a pang that she will only see me in this way: her ever-present best friend. That she will never see me for who I really want to be for her: the man beside her right now.And though I could fool the world with my fake smiles, I knew that I could never foll my heart that will always be crying inside.
__________________________________________________________
He was the one that I really love. All pretenses aside, there was a time that I actually thought that I could never live without him by my side. He would smile at me through the lens of his ever-present camera, and I would simply smile back with my heart. Despite the circumstances, I fell in love with my stupid best friend, who couldn't get a clue even if it was staring at him in the face.
And yet he wasn't mine to keep.
I spot him staring aimlessly out onto space like he usually does, lost in his personal universe. I raised my hand and waved at him. He notices and waves back at me with a smile on his face. I have broken that trance, and yet he has casted his own spell on me.
The person beside me tapped my arm. Now my own spell was broken, I am back in the present world. I now love the man beside me, my best friend a bright memory in my heart, to be kept there forever.
And yet, I couldn't help but look back to that stupid best friend of mine. To what could have been. To all the 'what ifs' in my mind... to what could have been...
__________________________________________________________
She was the one that I have chosen to love. She possesses a unique kind of beauty that I would never find anywhere again. I loved her with every fiber of my being, and by some amazing twist of fate, she loved me too.
And yet she wasn't mine to keep.
She saw someone that she knew, and she raised her hand and waved. I looked at the direction she was waving at and saw her best friend waving back. He looked deep in thought, but nevertheless he smiled at her attention. Then he looked at me and gave me a small nod. It was the same time a greeting and a small threat, all packed into that simple gesture. Little did he know the real score among the three of us behind the scenes.
She lets her arm fall back and that expression take over her face. She was in another world again. That world between her and her best friend... That one guy that no matter how hard I try, I could never beat. He has a hold on her that would never be broken, a hold stronger than she would ever dare admit to herself. Yes, she was with me, but he has her in a way that I couldn't compete with...
Those two should really get a clue. And soon.
02. But sooner or later, the man who wins is the man who thinks he can.
I need to find a way to be with you. This feeling has got to stop. It has surpassed the stage of any excusable 'want' that I could rationalize. Before I knew it, you had captured me in a way that was beyond my comprehension. I want to be with you, and yet I know that it can't be. The perfect world in my mind... that perfect world I have created with you by my side... I want to have it if fate will permit, but that bodiless entity is the one causing all this mess from the start.
Why am I so determined to be with you in the first place? Is it your smile, the way you walk, the way you shine wherever you go like you have your own personal spotlight? Is it the way you make me feel whenever I'm with you? Is it simply because you are you?
My mind is confused; you seem at the same time both happy yet discontented. Would you allow me to be your personal sun? Or will these questions be forever left unanswered? Will I let you be or will you join me to fight our destinies together?
...But sooner or later, the man who wins is the man who thinks he can.
03. Only one word can break a heart.
Only one word can break a heart. And that word may not be the one that you imagine it to be. It may bring happiness to the one you love, but you might be hurting the one that loves you. And these persons may not be the same. You can't please everybody, yet there will come a time when you will have no choice but to make a choice. But what if you hold her smile as important above all... yet you can't stand to see the tears of the other?
Maybe if there was an option where no one would get hurt, you would have done it a long time ago.Or you wish you could be just numb to all emotion, incapable of feeling hurt or happy. Truly, that ignorance would indeed be bliss...
04. Just taking in air together without doing anything. If it's with the person I like, that alone is enough to make me happy.
Just taking in air together without doing anything. If it's with the person I like, that alone is enough to make me happy. No more elaborate settings, fancy words, or all that effort to make things just perfect; just you and me with no one else but ourselves to keep each other company. With you I really could be free, without having the feeling of catching my breath like I always do. Stress would melt away, tiredness would soon become a thing of the past. Floating in space with my head in the clouds, even being bored has lost its meaning when I'm being bored with you. :)
05. What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you?
I'm at the top of the world, successful as I can be. I've achieved everything that there is to achieve, got more than I could even dare ask for. I have dared to dream beyond my dreams.
And yet I still feel incomplete.
Another great achievement, I don't have you by my side. You were busy being happy with somebody else, building that dream home and making your dream family with the man of your dreams. As for me, the one thing I have ever dreamed of coming true has already fallen apart. That dream of mine will always be a dream, while your dreams are becoming your happy reality. Although people may envy me for how far I've come in my life, I know that the 'me' I could really be proud of was already stolen from me. By the girl of my dreams that I dream to turn into the girl of my reality.
What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you?
06. Forgiveness is surrendering my right to hurt you for hurting me.
Forgiveness is surrendering my right to hurt you for hurting me. How many time have you promised to change? How many times have you promised not to do the same thing again? How many broken promises have you made? How many times have you broken my heart? How many questions like this would it take before you'll get tired of playing with my feelings? How many times do I have to teach my heart to toughen itself up when it meets yours? How many times will I fall (once again) for that irresistible fake sincerity in your eyes? How many times will my heart take the disappointment that it was doomed to experience from the start? And when will these kind of questions ever stop themselves from being asked? Is there a time when they'll ever stop? Or will the time come that I could just stay away so I would never have to ask these questions ever again?
Will that time ever come...?
07. You never cared.
You never cared.
I stood in the rain outside the gate of your house, clutching the sodden bouquet of roses and my broken heart in my hands. Your bedroom light was open, signaling that you were there. Why won't you answer my calls? Why won't you at least hear me out? Why can't you try to understand? It was an honest mistake, something I did when my mind simply lost control. I never meant to hurt you, like what I promised that day.
It wasn't like I had a choice. I had to do what's meant for me to do.
My flight is less than twenty-four hours, and yet I'm still here. Waiting for that upstairs window to open so I could see just a glimpse of your face. After that... at least I could go...
I tried to call you again, and this time you answered. Your sweet voice was thick with something like sleep, a little rough but still music to my ears. Were you crying? I told you I was here. Suddenly, the front door opened and you came rushing out, the tears streaming down your face mingling with the rain. Never mind that I was wet to the bone. I caught you up in my arms and hugged you tight, never wanting this moment to end. There was a storm around us, yet I felt so calm. Despite the torrent of emotions running through my head and my heart, I may just have found my piece of heaven by your side.
...And I'm taking back what I said earlier. You did care... and maybe you just cared too much to see me go. But I really won't be going... Because I left my heart with you, that one stormy night...
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Aaaaaand the first part is done~ as I said, feel free to imagine any pair that you like :) Drop some comments? :3