I (caps lock key) FUCKING HATE HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DO, I FUCKING HATE HIM AND WISH HE WERE SUFFERING LIKE I AM...TRUST THE BASTARD? BEEN THERE, FUCKED OVER...NOT TO SOUND BITTER, BUT I AM, IN THIS, ALL MY FEELINGS STEM FROM AND SURROUND MY OVERWHELMING OBSCENELY CONSUMING BITTERNESS TOWARDS ALL THAT IS HIM....I KNOW THIS COMES FROM NO WHERE, BUT ITS ( Read more... )

quite obviously...i enjoy mus-ac...ic...what have you...and up until now i havent made much of an effort to include it in my entries...this i feel is a mistake...music helps me in my daily life...if i could listen to music at work, i wouldnt mind being there at ALL...but icant...somethng about animals, or whatever ( Read more... )

and the world has started its quick decent into darkness, and all around me things are crashing down, all i can do is watch in horror, and wait for the light, while greiving...it has started, and i can no longer pretend the inevitable will never come...

nice evening...took my shea out, down to the river, he wouldnt go in, i had to drag him across the crick...crick...thru the trails...where i spent most of my formative childhood years...walking back there, alone, i thought a lot about what ive left behind forever...it was an amazing, cliche childhood...me, nick, randy, eric, allen, jake, cheryl... ( Read more... )

you are the one i run to ( Read more... )

-It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, But what is ( Read more... )

i was reading a book,but ellen interuptted me, so now i cant concentrate on it..might as well write, as i cant read right now...which also wont work, because all i am feeling and want to write wont make sense to anyone, because its all garbled in my head...GARBLED ( Read more... )

not too much to write...im too young to be old, but sometimes i feel ready...i dont know if im just giving up too easily, or just following the way of things...im not gonna fight for something thats not worth fighting for, and i wont fight for someone if they dont want to be fought for...thats not true...all my day is spent fighting the inevitable ( Read more... )

never shoot your mouth off to a group of people with a severe case of mob mentality

saw kind arthur with cheryl tonite...very good time i had...cheryl makes movies more enjoyable, because she enjoys them so much,and gets so into it...im tired...and not just physically...im emotionally drained...i just want to go to sleep, and not wake up...the ultimate R and R, death...i just get so pissed off lately...i cant handle anyone, cept ( Read more... )