Feeling like shit... again.

[scyfygy]

So... Samantha didn't work out. For anyone who was interested. You can all say "I told you so" now, and make my life more god-awful than it already is. Nothing particularly bad happened, but she just wasn't into me in person I feel like shit, and I'm about ten times more lonely now than I was before I met her. I just don't know how life can be

Comments

[kameil]

CRAAAAP. I'm sorry Mike. I know you were excited about this. I hope you feel better soon. Give it time.

[scyfygy]

Yeah... I know... thanks, Julie. That's the last time I'll be optomistic about something like that though...

[kameil]

You just gotta mellow. Just go with it, man (like totally). In the words of Tom Verlaine, "Look here, junior, don't you be so happy. But for heaven's sake, don't you be so sad.".

[scyfygy]

heh, righto...
It's not that I can't get over it. I can, and I'll do it quickly. It's more that I don't want to. That I feel like, by pushing past it and getting on with my life, that a little part of my soul is dying. The part that lets me feel pain, anguish, sorrow, and even happiness. I don't want to become numb. And what's really scary is that I feel well on my way.

[grinningjim]

Here's my unwanted advice. Ready? Go!

Stop looking for happiness. Stop. Now. Happiness sucks ass like nothing else... it's a moment or two of absolutely great and wonderful feelings, and then it plummets.
Also - stop going out with people who are looking for happiness. Often, they don't really know what they want. They think they know, and damn it all if they aren't close. But they don't know.

Instead, find contentment. Find someone who you like being with just for the sake of being with, and be with them. Don't ask them out... don't 'make a move'. Just be with them.

I hope you feel better. :)

[scyfygy]

Um... other than that being particularly annoying advice, the thought is appreciated