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[sdrawkcab_nam]

well i am on the edge. i am about just jump of a bridge. i hate being told i can do something and then get all excited for it and then get told i am not allowed to. fuck you. i didnt do anything to make me not able to go. you wanted good grades, i fucking got them. you wanted me to get along with my sister, i did. you wanted me to mow your fucking

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[juliabagulia]

u can always stay here

[sdrawkcab_nam]

ya, i dont know julia, its just i miss my friend (caiti) so much, you dont know her. but ya, shes amazing. idk and my dads being really stupid about it. i mean he said i could go! like what the fuck! now out of no where he's like no. i dont get it. i think i might be able to convince my mom to let me go though. if i dont im going to lose it. hah, my dad is so dumb. he told me today that you should be here to enjoy the things that only come around once a year. he told me that you have the rest of your life to do other things. i was really pissed after that.i told him i have the rest of my life full of christmas's! he just doesn't understand it. caiti isnt something that comes your way everyday. i feel so lucky that i met her and that i have gotten to know her how i do. i never want to lose her as a friend. and i get scared sometimes when it feels like i wont be able to see her. i mean i know i can always call her on the phone or talk online to her but im not to good at maintaining relationships like that. i need to be there with a

[juliabagulia]

that was a long post. but i know that sometimes those help make you feel better. just know that im ALWAYS here for you ok. if theres anything i can do to help you with this situation just let me know. i think possibly the best thing u could do is sit down with your dad and tell him what you just told me. sounds like this girl means a lot to you and if you explain that to him then maybe he'll understand why you must see caiti. and please dont talk about jumping off a bridge or anything along those lines i would be torn apart if nething happend to you sweetie! we've gone through so much, just think you'll be 18 soon and youll be able to leave ur house whenever you want.shit you could move by caiti. and just think about how it would make her feel if nething bad ever happend to you. I love you tony, just talk to ur dad and tell how u feel to ur mom as well.
Love you hun!!!
xo-julia
i wanna see more pics of you to!!

[sdrawkcab_nam]

thanks. i should try to talk to him again. well i have tried. last night. i dont think it helped though. i wasnt allowed to use the phone last night either! for some reason i am grounded from it. i seriouslly did nothing, i dont get it. i wanted to sneak a call last night to caiti thinking i could and he took all the damn phones, even my sisters! i am really pissed and mad, and ya those are the same things, but im having so many feelings right now. i just need to think stuff out. ya you bet, when im 18 im fucking outta the house, im going to travel everywhere. i think ill take a road trip up there. maybe i could stop and pick you up so you could meet her, that would be cool, i would want you to come with. well i gtg.

~tony~