9 years out

[seabiscuits]

I've been spiritually drifting of late -- oh maybe the past 2 years or so. And as I'm one to be seriously introspective it bothers me that I can't figure myself out. What is bothering me? What keeps me from just trusting -- myself, the love in my life, my decisions. My lack of decisions actually -- drifting towards 40 has greatly bothered me.

Comments

[puffpastry]

Aw, A. This is such a good journal entry, and even though I don't have even remotely the same life as you, I identify so much. In fact, at this very moment, I'm writing an entry on my LJ about how ashamed of myself I am, because I feel I'm such a vast disappointment to everyone in so many ways. If it matters to you at all, a few weeks ago I asked Tara, "How does Ang feel about herself? She looks like she's so confident and comfortable with who she is. I really envy that." So -- that's how you come off to other people -- as being very happy to be exactly who you are, which seems to be exactly who you SHOULD feel about your excellent self. :-)

I think you would be a great parent. I think you're pretty great in general.

[seabiscuits]

Hey thanks for the kind words. :) I guess it goes to show that even the most with-it looking people don't necessarily feel that way.

[shwiggitude]

you're welcome, i'm more than happy to participate. you know what? fuck people who say we shouldn't be parents (or at least, fuck their ideas). and by the way, don't let the femininity police fool you, you're cute - esp in yer boyish work clothes :)