HOLY FUCKING CHRIST WHY WONT MY WEEK JUST END!!... its 3am.. i woke up feeling like shit this morning.. at 6FUCKING am... my entire week has just blown.... and i just want it to be over.. is that so much to ask... I dont enjoy this week One fucking bit and I Swear I will praise the lord once its over... and if it doesnt get better for next week. . ( Read more... )

I..... am...... so...... FUCKING LOST!...... I dont know where im at.. and it feels sort of heavy on my chest..... I wake up.. not knowing what im doing this day... who i want to talk to... and if its even worth it anymore to talk to the person/s i REALLY truly.. honest to god want to talk to...... I need guidance that only I can give myself... and ( Read more... )

what happens when you find someone that you enjoy their company so much that you find it hard to do much else than that. You find it hard to keep track of time... you find it hard to look at other things.. you find it hard to feel "right" when you lose track of them.. perhaps even feel a little calmer around them because your not paying too much ( Read more... )

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Hmm i dont really see a point in putting this on here.. but ive gotten into a habit of recording random things about my life.. or changes or whatever... joes been over here for a few days.. thursday im going to talk to taka and jeremy about my trip to japan (yeh if you havent heard yet im going to japan in feb.) uhh.. nothing productive has ( Read more... )

Ok, my last post needs some re-clarification... Im not KING of jealousy for no reason... I admit i do get jealous easily.. It doesnt really affect too much except the fact that .. hey im jealous.. oh well.. i get over it... BUT.. the real reason why i find myself jealous in situations is cuz i dont know where i stand... If i lose my place in my own ( Read more... )

I am King Jealousy....

just.... wow......

Im sorry if i've been "short" with anyone....

Upon re-inspection.. i dont think Yellow is the ultimate camouflage.... i just think i have a problem seeing that color :-(