today = crap, but i'm sure that was expecting. i fell asleep at 3 in the morning again last night... i think there is something wrong with me. i'm just saying this either. like i need to see a doctor. last night before i finally fell asleep i realized that the last meal i ate was lunch at 12:30...i realized this at like 2:45 in the morning and the ( Read more... )

i hate my life now. i've never been this miserable ever. i've had this feeling in my stomach, heart, and head that feels like its eating me away. my life without stephanie is awful, not being able to talk to her about stupid everyday stuff or see her anymore is killing me. i can't take this seperation because it's so forced on me. i didnt fall ( Read more... )

life sure sucks. steph broke up with me because she needs a break. i don't hate her or anything. i just am incredibly depressed, but thats obvious. i swear to god i must be fucking nostradamus because i predicted this coming... i wrote in an actual journal on sunday night for the first time ever and i wrote how my biggest fear was losing steph... i ( Read more... )

oh man. today school was long and boring, but it turns out i have off on friday and thats always good. i just got back from a walk with steph... it was so awkward, i don't know. it was like silent and usually we walk, we talk, we strut our stuff, but it wasn't like that at all. i guess she was just really tired cause thats what she said but i don't ( Read more... )

okay, i am feeling better now. i made burritos today with my dad, to be honest with you i did most the work, sure he cut up the veggies and such but i cooked the rice, the steak, beans, and tomatoes, also the chilis, tomatoes and onions. so hooray for me...i guess. now i know how to make these bad boys...hehe =D. thank god for sublime they are ( Read more... )

I feel like garbage, I hate myself. I hate everything about me I'm sick of it all. I feel bad for anyone who has to deal with me, because I'm a complete asshole. I've been listening to this Cure album, Pornography. It makes me want to kill myself. It is by far, the most depressing album ever recorded in the history of the world.

woooooo, theres gonna be a party tonighttt. it should be fun i get to talk to john in person even though he probably wont be sober....oh well. i can also dance like a complete retard so that should be fun. the yeah yeah yeahs make me happy... i feel like sucha man when i listen to them...=\. they are good though the girl voice makes me happy =D

so me and steph went to the city yesterday with her parents. we went to eat at this place called the chat n chew. me and steph ordered the best burritos like ever. they were sooo good oh man. then we saw slava's snow show. it was strange and very slow paced. but it was funny i liked it. also i added a buncha new bands to my ipod, some i listen to, ( Read more... )

oh man i was up very late last night setting everything up on my iPod but now its all done and i love it! My iPod's name is Shameek I have to thank Stephanie for inspiration of the black name cause she wanted a black name for my iPod...woo!

yeah lets see here, nothing is really new. Steph has a new hair style goin on. It's pretty rad. We watched Edward Scissor hands last night, I forgot how good that movie was. She liked it alottttt.