I am maybe bipolar... this is fun (?) I am currently hyper as hell, couldn't sleep, and am doing fine on roughly four hours of sleep. Yesterday was similar, though I woke up later than should be legal.

This concept isn't news, my therapist has suggested it, as has my mother. It is kind of scary, but would explain tons of stuff. On the plus side, ( Read more... )

We just got back from cutting down our Christmas tree. I always feel guilty, as I claim to want to be environmentally aware and friendly, but still believe that fake trees are gross. I would be heart-broken if I didn't get to do this every year! But, I only take one tree... and I recycle... so it's ok, right ( Read more... )

I feel like a failure. I know I'm not supposed to. I'm doing what it takes for me to get better ( Read more... )

 So my new meds plus the old ones I'm still supposed to take make me feel very high. I don't like it, not one little bit. It's a scary feeling, where I'm ot aware of what's going on around me, like I've got a five minute delay or something. Plus, the Paxil always made me dizzy, which is a side effect that has only worsened. I laid on a futon ( Read more... )

That's where I spent last night.

My depression has gotten drastically worse the past two weeks. My mother decided, upon the advice of my doctor, that I needed to be hospitalized. I was asked the same questions, numerous times. I was hit on by the man taking my blood. As soon as I walked back into the emergency room, I was asked to give a urine ( Read more... )

The boy-thing here at school is just a friend, he determined today ( Read more... )

Halloween Party tonight. I had this brilliant idea for a costume. Ready for this?

Ben Watson.... I can do the walk and cheesy pick up lines. All I needed was a polo shirt.

Then I found out that he and another friend are being each other.

I can't decide whether I should still go for it, or change... Hmmm. I still have a few hours to decide.
 

3rd block started today. My Physical Geology class reminds me of Earth Science. We discussed earthquakes, and that involved an activity. The entire class went outside and lined up. Then, we put our hands on the shoulders of the person in front of us. Emily, our professor, then pushed the person at the back. This activity demonstrated the activity ( Read more... )

Dude......................................................................

I  have been depressed for a few weeks. It is annoying as hell. I don't have an explanation--it's just a "depressive episode." Everyone wants to help, to make it better, but I can't tell them how. It'll go away in a bit, I just have to push through the suckiness.

Boy-thing ( Read more... )

Alcoholics should not be allowed a 21st birthday. They tend to spend the next three months in a constant state of drunk.

As if that's not bad enough, one of them half-passed out on me, in a hug, telling me he was going to take me home with him.  I love this friend to death. A couple of months ago, I would've been happy to hear that he was interested ( Read more... )