Alone
I just found out today that someone from my past- a friend that I only known briefly, but cared for like a brother, had passed away over a year ago. If it hadn't been for this fandom, and an offhanded comment that someone had made in thier LJ, I never would have found out.
This is for binaryalchemist who was fortunate enough to know this kind soul as well. Fate let me find you, and fate binds us by a mutual friend who is no longer with us.
And this is for you, Tacoma. Sleep well, friend. *raises a piece of sushi in your honor*
Title: Alone
Characters: Mustang and Hughes
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: Angsty and sad.
Yearning...
"I... I was never able to tell you..."
I have a hole in my heart...
"I was always mad at you.. when you would talk about them.. talk about.. *HER*..."
I never got to tell you what you meant to me...
"You thought it was because you were loud and annoying, and would *never* shut up about them..."
And then you were gone and it was too late...
"But that wasn't the reason at all..."
It was because...
"I was jealous of you. She had *YOU*, and I had nothing..."
I could never tell you while you were alive...
"You were perfect together, husband and wife and daughter..."
I was alone, always alone...
"And the one thing in this world that I wanted..."
The one thing that was most important to me- that was so close, and so unattainable...
"I could never have..."
Slipped away from me...
"Good bye, Maes."
I love you.
This is for binaryalchemist who was fortunate enough to know this kind soul as well. Fate let me find you, and fate binds us by a mutual friend who is no longer with us.
And this is for you, Tacoma. Sleep well, friend. *raises a piece of sushi in your honor*
Title: Alone
Characters: Mustang and Hughes
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: Angsty and sad.
Yearning...
"I... I was never able to tell you..."
I have a hole in my heart...
"I was always mad at you.. when you would talk about them.. talk about.. *HER*..."
I never got to tell you what you meant to me...
"You thought it was because you were loud and annoying, and would *never* shut up about them..."
And then you were gone and it was too late...
"But that wasn't the reason at all..."
It was because...
"I was jealous of you. She had *YOU*, and I had nothing..."
I could never tell you while you were alive...
"You were perfect together, husband and wife and daughter..."
I was alone, always alone...
"And the one thing in this world that I wanted..."
The one thing that was most important to me- that was so close, and so unattainable...
"I could never have..."
Slipped away from me...
"Good bye, Maes."
I love you.