Title: All I Want Is His Love [Two Shots]
Pairing: DongHae/ HyukJae
Genre: Romance/ Fluff
Rating: PG
Summary: I don't think he has feeling towards me more than friend.....I'm no one in his eyes.....
Disclaimer: I own SuJu!!!! Just kidding :P I do not own Super Junior, I just own the plot.
Note: Written in HyukJae's POV
Part 1
I was rushing towards my class while looking at the watch on my left wrist. 'Shit.....I'm so dead.' I cursed mentally when I saw it was 8:30!!! I was so sure that my-not-so-patient teacher would be glaring at me when he saw me. I panted heavily when I reached in front of the class. I quickly opened the door, gaining the attention from all my classmates and teacher.
"Wow....you're so early, Lee HyukJae. Why don't you wait there until my lesson ends?" My teacher said sarcastically while pointing at the corner of the classroom. I felt my whole face hot and I knew that I looked like a tomato right now.
"O-Okay, sir. I'm sorry." I said softly before I headed to the back of the class. I was so embarrassed as the whole class was looking at me. I stared at the floor when I stood there. Suddenly, I felt a white thing hit my right arm and I realised that it was a ball of paper. I bent down and pick it up before I read it.
Yah!!! Stop pouting!!! You look like an angry monkey...... :P
I closed my eyes with annoyance as I knew who wrote this. Lee DongHae, my friend, my classmate, my so-called-bully and my crush. Sometimes, I don't understand myself why I still have feelings towards him. He is always teasing me and ordering me to do this, to do that. But I never say no to him because if he is happy, I'm happy, too. Everytime, I saw him smiled when he teased me, my anger suddenly disappeared and I smiled along with him. But what makes me sad is that he never care about me. I feel like I'm no one to him.
Suddenly, I felt something hit me again. This time was an eraser. I looked at him and saw him grinning at me. I glared at him before I turned my face towards the window. This time, I really felt angry. He was the reason why I was late this morning. I was staring out the window, waiting for the bell to ring.
'Ring! Ring' Finally, I sighed in relief. The teacher greeted before he went out from our class and I walked towards my seat.
"What happened, HyukJae? Why were you late today?" SungMin, my friend who was sitting in front of me asked with concern after he turned towards me.
I glared at the one beside me before I replied. "Because I had to listen to some stupid alien stories last night." I said with anger.
"Hey, don't use the words 'had to', HyukJae.....You could just hang up if you want....." DongHae retorted back while resting his head onto his right palm, facing towards me.
"Even if I just hang up, you'll continue calling me right? I know you, Lee DongHae....." I said, this time became angrier.
"You can just switch off your phone." He said with a smirk. I blushed at his words. Yes, what he said was right. Why didn't I switch it off?
"I--I..........what if other people call me? What if the the important calls come to me?" I stuttered when I reasoned it out. I saw him smirking wider.
"Who will call you at that hour except me? Tsk.....don't say nonsense.....I know you, Lee HyukJae......" He said. I didn't want to say anymore because I knew that I could not win. I just turned my face away from him. Maybe this was the best way for calming myself down.
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"HyukJae, why don't you eat your lunch?" I looked at LeeTeuk Hyung before I shook my head with a sigh. Then, I returned my gaze to the certain person called Lee DongHae. LeeTeuk Hyung followed my gaze and he smiled a bit when he saw who I was staring at.
"You jealous, HyukJae?" He asked with a smile. His smile was not a teasing smile but I-know-your-feeling smile. I blushed at his question. All of my friends knew that I had crush towards DongHae, except for that stupid fish.
"Why is he always flirting with the girls?" I asked to no one while I kept staring at the group in front of me. DongHae never sits with me during the lunch break. He always sits and has lunch with the girls, making my heart fills with jealousy.
"It's not he who's flirting with the girls. It's them who keep inviting him to sit with them." KangIn, LeeTeek Hyung's boyfriend explained to me.
"Then, why does he need to go there?" I didn't want to agree with him. I didn't want to see that scene. All I want is that DongHae pays his attention to no one but only me. But I know that it's impossible.
"It'll be rude if he doesn't go there. It's not that he doesn't care about you, HyukJae." KangIn Hyung defended for DongHae, his favourite DongSaeng.
"No, Hyung.....He never care about me.....I'm just nothing in his eyes......"I said sadly before I stood up from my seat.
"Hey, where're you going? You havn't finished your lunch...."
"I don't want to eat anymore......." I smiled sadly to LeeTeuk Hyung before I left my friends.
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'Down~Down~ Even if the sky is falling down~~' My phone rang while I was studying at night. I didn't need to look at the caller ID as I'd known who was calling to me at this hour, no other than Lee DongHae.
"What, DongHae?" I asked blankly.
"Yah....what's with your tone? Are you still upset?" I rolled my eyes when I heard the other's questions.
"So, why are you calling me DongHae-shi?" I asked him sarcastically.
"Haha.....I didn't know that you can say like that....." I heard him laughing at my words. A smile was formed on my lips when I imagined his smile, the smile I could not forget.
"So, what?" I asked him.
"Nah....I just want to ask you something." DongHae said.
"What's it?" I asked him while writing my notes.
"What do you think of Jessica?" I stopped writing when I heard his question and my heart suddenly felt sank.
"What do you mean?" I asked him, controlling my voice from cracking.
"She confessed me today.....I think that girl is not bad, right? What do you think, HyukJae?" I felt my heart was breaking and my eyes became watery.
"Hey? Are you still there?" DongHae asked when he didn't get my reply.
"Umm...Yeah." I said controlling the sobs. "It's up to you. Why do you still asking me about your dating? I'm not experienced person like you..." I said, luckily not stuttering.
"I know! But I just want to tell you that I'm going to date with her. Wait, why do you sound so upset? Aha I know, you're jealous right?"
My heart skipped a beat when I heard the word 'jealous'. So, did he know that I'm jealous?
"haha.....I know that you're jealous of me...because I keep getting confession from many girls while you haven't even got once, am I right?"
I suddenly felt angry and sad at the same time. 'Meannie fish!' I curse him mentally. I don't know when he would stop bullying me with his words.
"Yah!!!! Stop insulting me, Lee DongHae!!!" I shouted him. I knew that he was grinning like an idiot fish right now.
"Haha.....Why? Are you angry because I say your true feelings right? Haha"
'You'll never know my true feelings DongHae' I thought and smiled bitterly.
"Is that all you want to say?" I asked. I really wanted him to hang up the phone before I cried out loud.
"I guess, yeah......hehe"
"Then, Bye. Goodnight DongHae." I said and hang up the phone without waiting for his reply. I let my tears to roll down my cheeks as I felt my heart broken once again. I felt this feeling every time he asked about the girls he was about to date. For him, it was just informing to his friend, but for me, it was another heartbroken night.
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I sighed and looked at the empty seat beside me. It had been one week since DongHae started to date with Jessica. And he disappeard most of the time except for the lessons. He didn't hang out with us anymore and he didn't even bother to call me at night. I actually missed his teasing and his calls at night.
'Yeah...who will call this boring guy when you get a sweet girlfriend?' I thought to myself and sighed again. I startled when I saw SungMin was staring at me.
"What?" I asked him.
"HyukJae, you still have us." He said with concern.
"What do you mean?"
"You look like you're the lonliest person in the world. Where's your usual smile?" SungMin asked sadly. Sometimes, I felt sorry for my other friends. I knew that they also felt sad for me.
I didn't say anything but gave him a shrug. Suddenly, I saw DongHae rushing into the classroom.
"Oh, teacher is not here yet??? Good! I thought I'm late.....She asked me to accompany to her class....." He said, still panting heavily. SungMin glared at him before he turned back to the front of the class.
"Huh? What's that look for?" DongHae asked me. I just shrugged and avoided his eyes. I was afraid that he would see my feelings from them. He was about to ask me something but luckily, the teacher came into our class.
"Class! Class! Attention! We have a new student today.....Boy, come in." Then, we saw a tall boy with handsome face entered into the class, making the girls squealing at the sight. I agreed that he is handsome but my heart still says that Lee DongHae is more handsome than him.
"Hello everyone! I'm Choi SiWon. Pleased to meet all of you." He polietly bowed before he introduced himself.
"Good! Your seat is behind HyukJae. Lee HyukJae, can you raise your hand so that he can know you." I slowly raised my hand and I saw SiWon smiling at me when he saw me.
"You don't have seatmate. Sorry about that. HyukJae and DongHae, please help him with the notes." We both nodded to the teacher.
"Hi, I'm HyukJae......nice to meet you." I introduced myself to him and extended my hand when he sat down on his seat. I just didn't want him to feel lonely and I just want to make new friend.
"Nice to meet you too, Hyuk....." I was surprised at the new nickname. No one gave me nickname until today.
"Is it okay if I call you Hyuk?" He smiled and asked me as he saw my expression.
"Uhh....It's okay.....I like it......" I smiled him brightly. Suddenly, I felt a tap on my shoulder.
"Have you done talking? The lesson's already started......" DongHae said with irritated face. I just gave apologizing smile to SiWon before I turned around. I glanced at DongHae's face, seeing a frown on his handsome face. 'Is he jealous?' I thought but I knew that it was not possible. I just broke my thoughts and focused on what the teacher was teaching.
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It was lunch time. I invited SiWon to join our group so that he could make new friends. And it was so strange that DongHae was also joining with us. I didn't know why he joined us today, but it was not important as I was happy to have lunch with him. All of my friends seemed to like SiWon, except for one person, Lee DongHae.
"Hey, introduce yourself......" I told DongHae since he didn't say anything.
"Why should I? The teacher called out my name just now. He should remember it." He said rudely. I gave SiWon an apologizing look for DongHae's rudeness.
"I did remember your name, DongHae-shi. It's quite easy......." He looked at DongHae intently. DongHae gave him irritated look before he stood up from his seat.
"Where're you going?" I couldn't help but ask him.
"To my girlfriend, of course!" He said before he left us behind.
I suddenly felt sad, I thought he would join with us today. But it was just my hope. Afterall, he never care about me. I looked at SiWon who smiled at me warmly.
"Uhh....DongHae's always like that....." I chuckled uncomfortably before I looked down at my food avoiding my friends' looks with pity. The lunch time was as usual. My friend told some jokes to make me smile. I felt thankful to have these kind of friends and I found that SiWon is very nice and kind person. I thought he was very gentleman but he actually is funny guy. Suddeunly, I saw DongHae entering into the cafe again but this time with Jessica clinging on his arm. My smile disappeared when I see them laughing. He then looked at our side and I quickly avoided his gaze.
"I-I'll go first......." I said before I left the cafe.
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'Ring! Ring!' The lunch time was over and all students were starting to rush to their classes. I was already in my class, lying my head on the desk. I heard the footsteps beside me, knowing that DongHae was here. I kept looking at the window until I saw a pink carton and a hand appeared in front of my eyes. I was surprised and looked up, seeing SiWon with a smile.
"You didn't eat much during lunch time.....I hope this will help you...." I smiled at him as strawberry milk is my favourite.
"Thanks, SiWon......" I said and I felt a sudden tap on my shoulder. I looked at DongHae and he handed me a piece of paper.
"Let's do history project......teacher'll be here soon." He said.
"But, today is not deadline......" I told him after I took the paper.
"What? I just want to finish it early....just do it....do part 2, I'm doing part 1 now......" He said impatiently before he took out the textbook.
"Why so hardworking?" I muttered softly and I saw him glaring at me, showing that he heard what I just said.
"Hyuk......" I turned around when I heard SiWon's voice.
"Yes?"
"Do you have time today after school?" He asked me.
"Yeah.....I don't have anything to do today....why?"
"So, can you lend me your notes and explain to me the lessons if you can?"
"Sure! I can help you....don't worry about it..." I said with a smile. I was happy that I could help new student.
"So, where should we do it? Umm....library? Is it okay for you?" SiWon suggested.
"Of course!"
"Thanks a lot, Hyuk. I owe you for this....." He smiled at me genuinely, showing his dimple.
"You're welcome...I'm happy to help you....."
"Ahem!!" I heard interruption and turned to him, seeing his glare towards us.
"I asked you to do part 1.....why do you keep talking, HyukJae? Is it more important than our project? Do you know this project is very imp---"
"Okay! Okay! I'm doing now! Happy?" I interrupted him before he nagged at me. I really didn't know what's wrong with him today. I pouted and opened my textbook roughly, showing that I was angry with him. I became angrier when I heard his chuckle.
"What?" I asked him with a glare.
"You look like a monkey.....a cute monkey...." He said and smiled. I was surprised and my anger suddenly disappeard. I blushed with his statement. I've never heard that he called me cute. My heartbeat became faster because of that single word.
'Focus! Focus!' I thought myself before I focused on reading the question.
Next Part >> A/N: Hihi.....this is another fic by me ^^ I was actually writing one shot, but it becomes two shots....haha I don't know why..... :D I hope you enjoy reading my fic......I may update part 2 tomorrow or Sunday....not sure yet....But I'll try to update soon! All comments are loved and welcomed warmly by me..... <3 <3 <3