*ahem*

[secretagentempy]

My conscience keeps bugging me. There are certain things that I feel should be said to certain people, and I haven't said them because.. well, I don't know why. Because I haven't. But I have a few apologies and explanations for folks, and I just can't have a clear conscience until I get these things out. Whether or not these people end up

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[sad_pisces_man]

Strange. I never had a crush on you; I just thought you were amusing and fun to be around, but I never considered going out with you. Still, I can't hold it against you that you couldn't return my (suspected) affections; I've been in that uncomfortable position before and can't say I'd do any better. You love who you love, and there's no controlling that.

Interestingly enough, on this linguistics mailing list I belong to, we're having a discussion on whether or not a command to love somebody or believe something even makes sense at all to say; you can't command someone to love you because it's a state beyond control, and a command implies that there is at least some level of control by the one commanded. Fascinating topic.

[secretagentempy]

I didn't think you did. I mean, I obviously thought so then, but now (as in later) I realize that it was all just me being a paranoid, arrogant idiot. :D
But I wanted to apologize for it, because I may have acted oddly around you for a while because of it.

I don't think that makes any sense. For example, I've been told to believe in the Christian religion countless times, but I just don't have the faith. I just don't believe in it, and I won't until I do. Or something.
You can be tricked into falling in love with somebody, but you could never be told to do it. The feelings would have to be there first, and then, you may as well have not been told.

[sad_pisces_man]

I know precisely what you mean; for a while, any woman who was nice to me automatically had a crush on me. Made for some awkwardness on my part. That was arrogant and single-minded of me, but then again, it's not like I'm never single-minded and arrogant :/.

[secretagentempy]

XD; Thanks. Actually, all of them have livejournals, so there's at least a small chance they'll see it - though the ones not on my flist probably won't come and visit unless somebody else notices and prods them into reading it.
I've found that it's usually a lot better to know what you think and say what you mean. :D

Haha. XD Exactly. And I understand that sometimes we just have days where we don't WANT to get over it, we'd like very much to sit here and sulk about it, thank you, but geez... XD; It can't be like that every single day.

[acolytezero]

Don't apologize to me. It was and is not your fault. I don't think people that hate themselves can really be friends with anyone, let alone anything on a more personal level.

[secretagentempy]

You're such a puzzlebox. :x

It isn't my place to try to figure you out, but even so. Just what is it that you want out of life..?

[acolytezero]

I really don't know, and that's pretty much what's keeping me here. My greatest puzzle, so to speak.

[secretagentempy]

If you don't know even that, it's pretty easy to get lost. D:

You're just one big jumble of lostness. :x Well. good luck in finding what you want.

O_O

[vex_life]

To Susan G: I really never cared that much.. I knew you didn't like me and I don't hold it against you. I've always cared about you and I've remained your friend because of the fact that I've never had a reason for not being your friend. I won't take you off my f list because I still consider you a friend. Even if you have been and were being stubborn headed and being really mean to me and absolutely showing open hate towards my friends. That never bothered me because I thought that you must of had a good reason to be that way. I'm glad that my name was mentioned here although I wish it were in better context. Oh and I admire that you have posted about all of this. I do hope you realize that forgiveness is a whole different kind of love. I hope that maybe one day you will take a moment and realize that I have never held anything against you and I've always tried to be your friend. But I guess that is a matter of perception. Well Susan : have a great life.. May you have countless more anime conventions to go to, may you have many more

[secretagentempy]

Regardless of whether you consider me a friend or not, it doesn't change or affect my opinion of you. My opinion of you is just that - of you. Not of the way you regard me or why, but of who you are. And, consequently, it's somebody that I don't like.

You haven't done anything wrong so it's nothing that can be forgiven. I just don't like you.

[shenspectre]

Well, I guess I really don't know what to say...Does this mean I'm not blocked anymore?! ^^ I must say I wish you didn't dislike me, or that I knew what it was you disliked so I could change it. But, I am glad you don't totally loath me.

I'd really like to talk again, but I'm sure thats pretty much out of the question. I thank you for mentioning me.

Love

[secretagentempy]

No, you're still blocked because I still don't like you.

Try to understand. It isn't the things you do that I don't like, it's YOU. It can't change, and please stop offering to change it.