My Nana died today.

[secretburning]

But really, she died a long time ago. My grandmother had Alzheimer’s disease, that cruel thief that steals memories, relationships and, eventually, an entire life. I last saw my Nana in 1997, just before I moved to California. I’m not sure when she last saw me, because by that time, she didn’t know who I was. My husband, whose sharp-as-a-tack

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[fuchsia70]

Emily, so sorry. What a beautiful tribute to someone who was obviously a dear lady. I lost my own grandmothers a year ago- one to Alzheimers, the other after a fall. The one who died after the fall was my favorite-- the one with whom my sister and I spent the night many a weekend and who was my biggest backer. Her mind remained sharp to the end and it wasn't until her last few months that she started to deteriorate physically. Even knowing it's coming, it is still hard.

May your fond memories carry you through.

[goatsoap]

I'm so sorry for your loss, Emily.

My people pronounce Virginia that way, too.

feel ya

[chinacutiemom]

Mom is in the "end of the road" Alzheimer's unit now and it's only a matter of time. I hope it's soon. The body is there, the soul has already left.

We knew it was a possibility, suggested anti-Alz drugs years ago, but she buried her head in the sand and said lalalala--even tho her mother and older sister died of it. I am adopted, thank God.

The part they don't tell you isn't the forgetfulness, it's the horrible personality change that comes over them. They become terribly depressed, hideously bitchy, argumentative, etc. Compare to a 2 year old who has been kept up for 48 hours and just fed a pound of sugar, and you have a close idea of what they are like. That's the worst part. Now she just sits and smiles. I'm set to sad now also. My MOTHER left us a long time ago.

[kagstone]

I am so sorry, Emily. I lost my grandmother almost a year ago. Grandmothers are extra special and I know you are thankful for these memories.

[chatgoddess]

I'm so sorry Emily. Hugs!