today was actually a great day.. advex and the whole not doing anything all day thing really helped me out... maybe thats what i needed to refresh my head and my whole attitude fowards life.. i alittle break.. now lemme see, i talked with john a little at lunch before he left.. he asked meif i remembered of the time we all went to the mall and ( Read more... )

i hope john gives people second chances.. cause i think i need one... i want him back soo much, but this time i wanna actaully be a good girlfriend, cause he gave me so much and i still sometimes pushed him away.. well maybe i needed to give him the attention.. i feel crappy i want him back i think im gonna ask if we can just start over on monday ( Read more... )

me and john are over.. i broke up with him in a 4 page note. i feel so free and yet so freakin depressed.. lemme just crawl under a rock now....

i just dont understand how u can smile with all those tears in your eyes, when u tell me everything is wonderful now...

that pretty sums up how i feel...

have a nice day, i know i wont,
jackie.

today i felt empty... john wasnt around. at lunch, i hung out with chris.. and we hung out with damen and tyler and it was ok.. i just realized i really dont hang out with very many girls anymore.. i guess i can relate to guys more.. or guys just find me better than girls do.. hah i dunno.. but i hope my johnny boy isnt sick.. that would suck.. i ( Read more... )

I know that if u have a free account, "they" say that u cant change the part of where it says comment.. but if u pay for ur journal.. ur allowed to have it say what u want. HELP.. is that true? cause if so that sucks.. or does anyone know a way to get around it? It says lindsay has a free account, but instead of comments it says "keep me?" yea u ( Read more... )

i smell of glowsticks..... heh heh.. yea leah is with me right now, she is spendin the night.. yes, and leah had to pop a hole in one of our glow sticks lol "not MY fault i was inocently chewing on it and WAABAM glowsticks taste like SHIT and they burn" (that was leah) we even put glow stick juice over the dog.. He's now running in the dark and ( Read more... )

Check out the kurt cobain suicide note ( Read more... )

heh, life is funny. i mean, one second u think one way towards someone, then they do something to blow ur mind and it makes u think differently towards them, but yes, that's how life is most of the time, un predictable ( Read more... )

wow i felt liek being annoying tonight ( Read more... )

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