How in the midst of today can I find nirvana? http://www.ted.com/index.php/talks/view/id/229 

This Friday is being canceled completely. To many difficulties with making sure everyone can make it. ie. work,birthdays,airports,boys,girls,families, you get the drift. Anyway we will be (me and Michael) at Michaels on Thursday if anyone wants to come. I don't know what else to do. Jade let me know if you want to come to my house Friday since this ( Read more... )

And say YES YOUR MAJESTY! 
I have alot of work to do this weekend, and enough drive to do most of it. But first I have to clean my room. 

it's 4:40 in the morning. still have to finish my assignment. now i'm just wondering if i should stay up and not go to bed again. I had help. staying up that is. but now Iv'e out done myself with this work and i havnt gotten to the point. i think i'm gonna be sick actually...no sarcasm. look how far wev'e come ( Read more... )

 Well i'm in photoshop class. Spectacular you might say. no. no and perhaps only jade knows how non-spectacular it is. I'm having a much better day then yesteray already. Which is sad because it isn't very good. I get to sleep a fare amount again tonight so I think i'll waste some time. And at the same time not waste so much time and get some real ( Read more... )

 I've lost my drive. I don't know how.. It was here less then a week ago and now it's gone, completely gone, but how? I simply for the life of me can't do my work, have good conversations, think straight, or do anything I like doing. I'm raving mad! I don't even crave a drug, any drug! nore colours, canvas', or paint. I don't even fill up my time ( Read more... )

 I feel like I have an absense in my days. It's probably killing me but i'm to deep into it to really know. I don't even crave the pixie dust in my tea cup. I miss people today, it's one of those sad days that make me to tired to get out of bed. I do hope tomorrows better, I hate this infernal depression. Where are people? Death,

 god. i love him. whyyy. oh wait, i know.

oh lord. first off, men are the living beathing standing on two feet relation to pigs. but i will not judge.
secondly he is the most ignorant individual that i know, i love him with all my heart, not one thing would i ever do to hurt him but i will slaughter him. i will make him curse the day he met me. 
i think i need to do something.

I'm not supposed to feel anything for him. So why is my chest aching. It never aches ( Read more... )