Love in Snow - One-Shot
Title: Love in Snow
Pairing: Ueda / Unknown ( One sided )
Genre: Angst? I guess? xP
Rating: Could be G . . . Depends on who you'd pick the unknown person to be 8D ;;
Disclaimer: Johnny refuses give me Ueda for my birthday > 3 <
We had been friends for as long as I could remember. And we remained friends. We got along so well, just like twins. We were so different, yet so alike, but we were inseparable. Yet, you stirred something in my heart that day. And it made me so confused.
Will this painful road to return continue forever?
The crack in my heart is filled with snow.
In the scenery I’ve been used to seeing,
You are all that’s there,
Visible in the city I’ve never looked at before.
I stared at you with friendly eyes, one others would see just as kind ones, yet somewhere in my heart, I knew, that something else was there. Love, perhaps? Maybe. I hadn’t known at that time.
You turned around, your gentle smile facing me, and I smiled back, with just the same amount of gentleness. You were all I could see. In this street that we’ve strolled along countless times. Together, just you and me. In my mind, there was no one else but us. It was all that mattered.
“Ne, Tatchan. Don’t you think the snow means something?” You asked me with such innocence. Your question puzzled me. “Huh?” I replied bluntly, causing you to giggle. “Like, if the snow’s falling, then it’s someone’s love for another. Words that they possibly can’t muster up the courage to tell, or can’t express it as well.” You explained. And it made so much sense. It was beautiful how you thought of it that way.
Even if my wish for love doesn’t come true,
‘I love you.’
I want to see you… I want to see you…
That is all I wish for.
A few mornings later, it just escaped. I figured that I really did love you. All I wanted to do was see your smiling face. The ones you always showed me. At that moment, I just wanted to run to you and hug you endlessly. But, I knew I couldn’t. Cause we were just friends, weren’t we.
My wish for love can’t come true. Cause we were friends. I don’t want to ruin that. But still, I can’t help thinking. “I love you.” My desperate whispers were swallowed up by the walls, as everything turned to silence after each and every time I utter out those three words.
I’ll send these overflowing feelings to you,
Placed inside white snow.
Because the gently falling snow,
Is somebody’s words of love.
I walked up the stairs of your workplace. I decided to surprise you by picking you up from work and have a little hang-out night. But little did I know, you had already found plans to occupy yourself with.
I peered inside the door to find you sitting between his legs, your back to his chest. He was playing with your hands while you swung your legs and giggled at the cheesy lines of love he gave you. I had never seen you so happy. And my heart ached as I admitted that. But, I still loved you. More than I could ever imagine.
You broke me out of my thoughts when you suddenly stood up from your seat and ran to the window. And outside, at that moment, pure white snow was gently descending upon the Earth. I couldn’t help but think that the snow was my love. I didn’t want to express my feelings, so I guess the snow did it for me. And I was content knowing you saw those feelings disguised as such beautiful shapes. I turned my heel and started walking down the stairs and exited the building.
Before long the snow will stop, The light is rising.
Will you be able to understand?
As for me, I’ll always be looking up to see
The snow that will not cease…
I stepped out of the door and onto the freshly fallen snow. I stared up at the endless sky and the snow that was escaping it. It wouldn’t be long before the snow would stop. And behind those clouds, I could see a radiant light. And I thought, ‘Would you be able to understand the snow?’
And as I walked down the very same street we used to take walks together, I kept staring at the snow, falling gently as if they were angels. Yes, the snow was going to end soon, but in my heart, it would always be falling. So I continued watching the snow that would not cease. Just like the never ending feelings I have for you.
A.N. Ah well . . . My first One-Shot 8DDD
And god, I hate myself for writing my first KAT-TUN fic as an angsty one XD ;;
This isn't my first fic, but it is my first published one xP
Would you guys mind giving me some pointers / creative criticism?