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feeling vulnerable
feeling empty
feeling scared

so contemplative
so anxious
so lost

led astray
looking back
seeing nothing

Okay just kidding ( Read more... )

You did it to me again ( Read more... )

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got a new dell at work. it's nice. the keyboards are quiet so i don't get irritated at the constant "clattering" from the next cube over where Supertyper sits. Plus the computer is faster now, i think i get more work done.

--->CoNtEmPlAtIvEi sat alone last night in my humble abode watching TV barely noticing 4 hours go by and then ( Read more... )

I just did something I never thought I would ever have the guts to do. I asked for a promotion at my job. I can't believe I did it. Weird.

uh. . .eyes are drooping, got to work too early, ||focus||

Okay planned spontaneity is better than no spontaneity if I must say so myself. Mike, Meg, and I "planned" a trip to San Francisco, a road trip if you must. And well, we did it this last weekend. It was great! Another friend came along that I wasn't too excited about it. She was great till exactly 4:30pm on the dot on Saturday. From then on out I ( Read more... )

Extremely irritated. . .that's all I can say. I thought I could put my finger on it, but not so much. This happens to me every once and a while (approximately once a month but it lasts for at least a week if not two). I'll get super irritated at a ton of things (but really can't pinpoint the one that drives me the most nuts). And all I'll want to ( Read more... )

I finally was able to lay my head down on my pillow. I promised myself a bed time of 10:30pm, but it was already 11:15pm and Friends was blaring in the background (Will & Grace eagerly awaiting my attentive eyes at 11:30pm). I knew I wasn't going to make it. I moved my hand under my face as if that position might be more comfortable, when I smelled ( Read more... )

so i was thinking about what it is that drives me nuts sometimes and what it is that i need the most right now and probably forever and that one thing is stability ( Read more... )