I so understand this mindset, I really do. I never wanted kids either, and I don't particularly like other children even though I adore Zack. I have those "jump in the car and drive off" fantasies often. I even keep a little bag packed and ready. It's my own little tether to sanity. "Hang in there" sounds so trite, but some days that's all you can do.
I am SOOO with you on this bit. I was supposed to get into Oxford and not even thnk about getting married until I was 27 and a frakking Professor. Then look - married to hot RM at 19. Children at 21. I can't stand other people's children (that calling in the Primary was no doubt supposed to TEACH me to like them but it sooo didn't work) and I love mine but want to hide and be selfish and by myself more often than not.
I'm glad it's not just me here. *hugs you*
THOUGH I must add - the one time jay actually told me that he had had a fantasy of just driving off without us I cried and cried. We only had ONE kid then and I was sure that meant he didn't love me and that he regretted our life. So yeah. Hrm.
It just seems that there are kids everywhere, every time I turn around. I think I need to enforce a ban on neighbor children. That's part of my problem. I mean, on one hand I'm glad everyone wants to play at our house, but on the other, that adds up to a whole bunch of kids.
And I don't think he regretted his decision at all. I think it's a natural reaction to that much change.
I'm not a mom but I do babysit some kids. I don't like kids they have germs and they cry and whine all the time. They want everything NOW and not later. So I suggest taking a weekend without them, because we all know that family vacations are really just vacations with the kids without work in there, or even just a day without them. Go to a local hotel and splurge. But remember that one day when your kids are out of the house you'll miss them and wonder about the days that you complained.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Am I the only one that loves all chickenses?! HAHAHAHA! *hugs you tight* :D I totally understand, though, Lovey, when you say you need to get away. That's why I post and go nuts when I get a bit of ME time. I tell you what, I will come and help with Becca's class and hug and hold hands with everybody. How's'at? *g* HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! I love this! *more huggles from a strange Urs*
I grin and bear it, I do. I don't want to hurt their little feelings, you know? I've even gotten good at not flinching when they come at me with their arms outspread! LOL
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I'm glad it's not just me here. *hugs you*
THOUGH I must add - the one time jay actually told me that he had had a fantasy of just driving off without us I cried and cried. We only had ONE kid then and I was sure that meant he didn't love me and that he regretted our life. So yeah. Hrm.
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And I don't think he regretted his decision at all. I think it's a natural reaction to that much change.
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And yes, you're right about family vacations.
I get to go hang out with my sisters next month, so I'm counting down the days!
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HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Am I the only one that loves all chickenses?! HAHAHAHA! *hugs you tight* :D I totally understand, though, Lovey, when you say you need to get away. That's why I post and go nuts when I get a bit of ME time. I tell you what, I will come and help with Becca's class and hug and hold hands with everybody. How's'at? *g* HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! I love this! *more huggles from a strange Urs*
*sends you some hope for Vegas time* X)
*goes off laughing*
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I grin and bear it, I do. I don't want to hurt their little feelings, you know? I've even gotten good at not flinching when they come at me with their arms outspread! LOL
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Ohmygosh! :D *LOL* You are tickling me! Yes, I would thoroughly enjoy myself. I have never flinched. *g* This has been good therapy for me. ;)
How is Momma? I have her in the prayer wheel over at 2ormore. ♥
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Mom is doing better, but she's actually considering retiring now as her knee still isn't what she needs it to be. (She delivers mail).
Thank you for being so kind and thoughtful.
*loves*
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I know from which you speak, sister.
One month and counting down?
Of course there's always that trip tentatively planned for January...
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