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you know what? screw trying to please everyone and make things seem okay.
i MISS my friends. the one i could tell everything, the one i confided in, and the one who protected me, whoever you may be, I MISS YOU. everyones asking what's going on. well heres the basis of it. i feel like i'm losing all my friends. they say when you dont have family anymore, you've got nothing. my friends ARE my family, and they have been for a very long time. so whats that mean? i dont even wanna think about it. you know how everyones worst nightmare is dying or waking up not being able to move? mine was always waking up one day and realizing everyone left me in the dust. and thats how i feel.
everyone leaving me in the dust includes God. i know He's there but i'm so far lost. i feel so alone all the time right now and i dont know what triggered it or what i can do to fix it. ive prayed about it over and over and i feel even worse having tried and not seen it get better. im trying to do my quiet times and pray and have Him in mind all the time, but i can't seem to feel okay. thats a huge part of how upset i've been for the past few weeks. if i felt His presence i know i'd get through anything.
but "Without God, it is utterly impossible. But with God everything is possible." - Mark 10:27.
so there ya go. things i've been going through. i need help. i dont wanna live every day wondering if this is truly what my friendships and faith have amounted to. because i know its better on the outside of this world i'm living in.
i MISS my friends. the one i could tell everything, the one i confided in, and the one who protected me, whoever you may be, I MISS YOU. everyones asking what's going on. well heres the basis of it. i feel like i'm losing all my friends. they say when you dont have family anymore, you've got nothing. my friends ARE my family, and they have been for a very long time. so whats that mean? i dont even wanna think about it. you know how everyones worst nightmare is dying or waking up not being able to move? mine was always waking up one day and realizing everyone left me in the dust. and thats how i feel.
everyone leaving me in the dust includes God. i know He's there but i'm so far lost. i feel so alone all the time right now and i dont know what triggered it or what i can do to fix it. ive prayed about it over and over and i feel even worse having tried and not seen it get better. im trying to do my quiet times and pray and have Him in mind all the time, but i can't seem to feel okay. thats a huge part of how upset i've been for the past few weeks. if i felt His presence i know i'd get through anything.
but "Without God, it is utterly impossible. But with God everything is possible." - Mark 10:27.
so there ya go. things i've been going through. i need help. i dont wanna live every day wondering if this is truly what my friendships and faith have amounted to. because i know its better on the outside of this world i'm living in.