The Death card suggests that my alter ego today is the Mover and Shaker, whose superpower for transformation relies on my bargaining ability to make a change. Even though tomorrow is another day, the time for change is now. Know that you can handle it and that you will not be alone in making it happen. Things may not seem to be going your way, but ( Read more... )

Six Reasons Why Fall Out Boy Does Not Suck as Much as You ThinkBy Nick Marino ( Read more... )

I had to drop school again. I wanted to kill myself last night.

I refuse to live like this anymore. I'm going to have a hysterectomy or a baby. Or I'm going to say goodbye.

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There are a lot of things I need to get out. Instead of explaining the same stupid story to anyone who has half an interest, I'm going to write it out. My thoughts come out better like this anyway. I'm kinda bad at telling stories and explaining events because I definitely leave important information out and I end up talking about something else ( Read more... )

OH MY GOD. I SERIOUSLY DO NOT KNOW WHAT I'M GOING TO DO NOW. I'LL EXPLAIN EVERYTHING ASAP.

I have to sleep. I need to rest my mind and regain energy and proper brain function to comprehend what is happening in my life. I never thought I'd be one of those people that others looked at and thought, "thank fucking god" I'm not her.

Sad. Lonely. In pain. Being robbed of the "best time of life." Discouraged. Unhappy ( Read more... )

Last night, my best friend of 9 years told me he'd have a child with me. No one has ever offered to do anything so touching, so heartwarming, so selfless, so beautiful. I'm going to graduate college, and if I can wait another year without having a hysterectomy, I can think of nothing I want more. This may be my only chance to have a baby, and he ( Read more... )

Despite how crappy the last few days have been, Hannukah/Christmas have been amazing. My parents spoiled me rotten and I feel so thankful and lucky to have received everything I did, especially considering our financial situation. I told them they really shouldn't have. Normally I list everything I got, but that seems kind of tacky. Let's just say ( Read more... )

I AM IN HELL.