I recently got in touch with a friend I hadn't talked to in a long time. We've kinda become e-mail penpals actually. Well, I took an excerpt, you could say, from one of the letters I wrote him. And it basically summed up my life in about 7 years by just a few paragraphs. It was painful to go back and read. But it's my life, amd I'm just trying to ( Read more... )

Please please please disregard the previous post. It was all a lie and I had NO fucking idea what I was talking about.

Anyway, I have SO incredibly much to write about but I'm lacking the energy and laptop battery life. Soon though. For my sanity, for the most part. Stay tuned. If anyone actually still does...

Despite EVERYTHING that has happened to me these last few weeks--that my body has never ever ever been this bad and I know it's just going to get worse until it's finally "fixed"--you make me happy. You are getting me through this and I owe you everything. So don't tell me you need some time to think about our relationship and what you're going to ( Read more... )

Instead of bitching about the ridiculousness of "The Crappening," as Joe so lovingly refers to it, I'll link to the best review of it I've found so far--and exactly why it didn't work. I don't know why I was looking forward to it so much...maybe the good reviews? It's not like any of his other films were worthy of they praise they got either. The ( Read more... )

progress: none
mood: defeated
pain: unbearable
future: uncertain

I continue to pray. I don't even know why most of the time.

My wonderful Bridgette made me a mix CD (and a Patrick bear!!!) that is hands down one of the best mixes anyone has ever made for me. Ever. In my entire life. And that is not an easy task for someone to accomplish. Im writing about it because it has touched me in ways that I can't even explain. And since it's kinda between her and I, I won't. But ( Read more... )

I'm a believer in letting the unimportant things slide. Sounds cliche, yeah, but it's so true. Before this ungodly long reality check I've been going through, I didn't know what it meant to actually suffer or to have a problem or to deeply and truly hurt. And I say ungodly long because although I remember the day it all "started," it was much ( Read more... )

He and I had something beautiful ( Read more... )

I have not been at the point where I have felt that life is worth living for a very long time. Just when I think I have gained that inner strength to keep going, I'm hit with another tidal wave. Multiple, in fact.

Everything--except for the fact that I have a loving family, a few close friends who truly love me, and the fact that I am actually ( Read more... )

I'm avoiding any detailed LJ entries because I just have so much to say. Maybe when I can better collect my thoughts I'll be ready to spill here. It almost feels as if so much has happened so fast, and right now it's coming to a screeching halt. Could it just be summer? I can finally relax and let go of a little stress? The problem is, though, ( Read more... )