Stole this from Lauren's journal. Analyzed myself. Seems as though I talk about myself quite a bit. Oh well, it is a journal, right? I also say shit and fuck a lot ( Read more... )

I have the ability to stab people with my tongue. I think I inherited this from my father... he would verbally abuse my insecure mother. I hate it..I really do. My situation is this... broke up with the girlfriend and we've traded insults and whatnot.. but things have been kosher for a week or so... haven't seen her for more than 3 minutes at ( Read more... )

Wow....my birthday is on Saturday. 26 years ago I popped out of my dear old mother's womb causing her much pain and years of obesity. I've always been kinda wierd when it comes to my birthdays. I view them as the opposite of celebration. Yeah...I'm racing towards death....let's celebrate! Oh no, Ben, you're celebrating life, come on now.... ( Read more... )

Things are so back and forth it tends to spin my head against my will. Very strange day yesterday and an even stranger night. Woke up on Abby's couch at 7:30am and went home to Ariel... reconciled some differences and talked about some things. She left me a note saying she might have lost the best thing that has ever happened to her. So we've ( Read more... )

Tonight I'm red - I'm over with black and blue ( Read more... )

Faster than it began... it is over. It doesn't do any good to say I told you so. People have said it all along. I felt it, too... but found the strength to endure all the naysaying because my lover was with me...us against the world. Well, we tried to fight the law and the..law won. I feel much pain and yes, of course it sucks but I'm actually ( Read more... )

Cut the noose and let me fall away ( Read more... )

It is a sick sad world. It doesn't matter how much you love someone and care for them because you'll end up in pieces. True love does not exist. I'm through with it all... people invent reasons for pain. I feel depressed and its scary when it happens. Permanent solution to a temporary problem ( Read more... )

Today is my first of two consecutive days off. Can I get an "amen?" Been a while for me, thats all... I'm really enjoying having access to the web... searching for new bands... fresh, unrelenting, beautifully brutal, sadistically romantic... just good stuff, at least I think so. Today I introduced myself to Everytime I Die, Beloved (us), and ( Read more... )

Time can kill the greatest of men. Even the strongest ( Read more... )