Spike/Xander fic
Hi, help?
Spike/Xander fic.
It starts off with the gang researching *something* at the magic box. The book Xander is reading has a spot that he scratches... And it sort of starts to lessen a WISH granted by a not-Anya vengeance demon.
See, Xander is actually the decendant of a fallen angel (possibly grigori?) and is one of two heirs of "LaVelle Enterprise" or incorporated or something business-like. But his cousin (the child of the current CEO and VERY VERY NECESSARY TO THE WORLD CONTINUING TO EXIST nephilim) was very jealous of Xander and how awesome he was (and his relationship with Spike) so he summoned a vengeance demon to wish that Xander were exactly average (or something like that) but without Xander THERE, in his life and being awesome, the cousin would die... And Xander being "average" means he can't inherit, leaving LaVelle Inc (or whatever it actually is. The LaVelle is correct, that's why Xander has that middle name) without an heir, and if the vengeance demon can't fix it, not only is she going to be killed by Dehoffryn, but all of existence is likely to POOF. Hence the spot on the book, way back at the beginning. After Xander starts to remember his real life pre-his cousin's wish, he determines to go to his uncle at LaVelle headquarters, and Spike (intrigued by the weirdness being displayed by Xander, because Spike at this point is still under the wish so doesn't remember) decides to go with him, and slowly starts to remember the real Xander/real non-wish world... There's sweetness with Xander and Spike remembering their relationship is pieces, and angst in Xander's fear that they won't be able to fix it and he'll just be donut boy forever, and willow showing up and helping...
It was one of the best fic I've ever read, I've been trying to find it for OVER A YEAR... Please help? It's not on A03, and I'm almost sure it's not on SpanderFiles I've even tried to search on twisting the hell mouth and fan fiction net (places i only go with a specific rec) but they're very very difficult to search... I've checked all my computer bookmarks,I was apparently not smart enough to bookmark, I'm going insane(er) PLEASE, even other places to LOOK would be helpful. And thanks in advance!