longing for some color to fill up the static of my sullen days ( Read more... )

have i ever really liked anyone?... anyone at all.. or has it all been some sorry attempt to fill up the hollowness in my heart? im too dramatic for my own good ( Read more... )

how has everyone been on this lovely wednesday? ..ive been mostly unproductive.. due to my parentals and their lack of faith in me.. but tis alright because my time of freedom and growth will soon come. tomorrow i dont have too much today.. but get a job since the ale house is being gay and taking forever.. today i just hung out w/mike and greg ( Read more... )

im in the mathlab.. just had world civ. awhile ago and im wasting time before physics as usual.. i got my mom to give me 10 dollars today. she better give me some money since she just bought my brother a tattoo the other day.. hes a brat. heh. anyways.. someone in here just said that someone was giving them a lecture and said that clocks on ( Read more... )

my stomach aches.. i ate wayyy too much food today.. lol. i feel so bloated now! heh.. but anyways. tomorrow i have an interview at the ale house so hopefully that job will pull through and then ill be able to get a routine going and make some moneyy...

i dont have much to say now, i guess im gonna go try to sleep. gnite.

im feeling much better now.
sigh.

i wish i could go to bed feeling complete.
i feel empty and bare..
at least i finally get the rest my body has been aching for.

i cant believe some things..

last nite was unneeded.. but im glad i came back on time and was responsible.. lol ( Read more... )

into something SOMEWHAT productive and enjoyable. i was so fed up with the nothingness that my life has been filled with like some sort of vaccum and that i was filled with such energy this morning! it was quite nice, actually, and strange and the exact same time because it had come out of no where like the breath of some angry god being blown ( Read more... )

ive been turned inside out.