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so caitlin and sara think that i'm a "shy eater". i would say "LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!111" except that it would make this look absolutely ridiculous and that's not what i'm aiming for. we were in gym, and sara said something about how having two lunches let her do her homework during her second lunch. i (stupidly) made some sort of comment about how it would be the perfect opportunity to eat food that you didn't want other people to see you eating. part of my "i love food" acting. i don't really know what i meant, but they took it as, "i'm embarassed to eat in front of people". caitlin goes, "you never bring a lunch! you must be a shy eater!" and then sara chimes in, "are you like one of those people who eat nothing all day and then go home and like eat everything?" and caitlin continued, "and your parents have to buy groceries everyday, no matter what, because you eat everything?"
they were laughing, and it was more of a joke than anything else. i mean, i was laughing too. but i have done things like that. done super well and then gone home and just binged the night away. so funny but slightly true, i guess.
anyhow, it's better for them to think that i'm embarassed about eating in front of others than for them to think that i don't eat.
except this means they think i eat a lot.
fuck.
i have such mixed feelings right now.