Comments | seiane: what can I say?

seiane

what can I say?

Jul 12, 2007 21:32

sometimes I feel like a doll. sitting. watching.
sometimes I just don't care what's going on around me. apathy.
sometimes... I want to be a doll. just sit. watch. don't care. don't have to decide.
oh! how easy it would be?
sometimes I want to close myself in my own reality.
I don't know what to do with myself.

Comments 5

archseraphin July 12 2007, 20:04:13 UTC

Dont be a doll , be a puppetmaster!!:D

seiane July 12 2007, 20:11:13 UTC

but... it's a lot easier to be a doll. you've a puppetmaster who is controlling you. you don't have nothing to do... sometimes I want to things be like this.

archseraphin July 12 2007, 20:14:57 UTC

maybe harder is to be a puppetmaster, BUT life is for giving you new tasks to be done and it is fun.:D

seiane July 12 2007, 20:21:23 UTC

but it's difficult. now, when I'm searching for a job, when I'm calling somewhere I hear only: "without experience? no, thank you..." or "not adult? sorry...". I don't want to face it. I want to fulfill some of my dreams but I can't. I have enough of this.

ruddder July 12 2007, 20:28:40 UTC

'just sit. watch. don't care. don't have to decide. '
you couldn't call it living..
no matter what kind of obstacles life throws at you.. you have to move on!
it is hard when there's no will to live but.. you're a good person with many dreams, aren't you? so.. makenai! :)
now you may be tired or bored so the 'life' of a doll seems better/perfect to you, but.. for how long could that be?